You stormed inside your apartment, wriggling the keys around trying to find the key to the door, finally you found it and unlocked the door stepping in, kicking your boots off, you expected Felix to be a little late considering he was further away from you so you just sat down on the sofa waiting. You were too angry to think about anything else except what you were gonna say to him, all of this was so sudden what would you say? How would you react? You better not cry cus' that will show your weak, and your not. Your going to get your way once and for all.
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Some time had passed and you heard the keys turning, Felix walked in speeding towards you, not taking his coat or shoes off, he stood infront of you as you got up and looked up at him, your eyes full of anger piercing into his which were full of sorrow, you could see he was trying to avoid eye contact with you but he possibly couldn't right now, especially when he had so much explaining to do. You tried to maintain a strong, dominant posture but you were so emotional, everything wanted to come out, tears were on the verge of spilling and you could only keep them in for so long.
"well" you said impatiently tapping your foot on the ground, Felix stood there in silence for a while before sighing and speaking.
"okay so, i wasn't completely honest with you..."
"Oh yeah thanks for that, but i figured it out MYSELF" you said spitefully as he flinched at the tone of your voice, his breathing got ragged and you almost felt bad but you couldn't be soft on him right now...
"well here it goes... uhm you remember my old friend right, the one you told me to stop talking to..."
"yes...he was a horrible person and you know it, he drugged people at parties and used them for his advantage whilst they were completely clueless."
"i know i know, he was horrible and i should've left him sooner, im glad you told me to otherwise i wouldn't have myself.." he smiled softly before returning back to normal.
"well uhm, lets just say we ran into eachother way before all of this and well he wasn't happy, he said that he helped me during my lowest providing me with the things that would help me to 'cope'- weed and shit. He wasn't happy that i just left him and said he would completely ruin me financially and mentally if i wouldn't repay him for the money he spent on me for the weed."
you were shocked, you never knew Felix even took weed, and the fact this lunatic wanted him to repay him after years. You just stayed silent waiting for him to continue.
"At first i ignored him but then i started receiving texts and calls from random numbers, sending me pictures and other ways to blackmail me, then i received an actual note saying that he'd harm the thing i loved the most- you." he looked furious, his teeth grinding together, his fists clenching
"I-I couldn't lose you y/n and he demanded an insane amount of money and the job i had right now was not making enough, i had to pay him back somehow and well, I tried to find ways how to and drug dealing seemed the easiest, at first i didn't know how, i had no supplier or any way to make it without you finding out, and eventually i ran into Kain and he was a close friend of yours so i trusted him and told him everything, he helped me the best he could and im grateful...im not angry that he told you, i just wish i could've told you myself, but im-im such a fucking coward Y/n..."
"Felix..." you breathed out, all of this was so much to take in and you had no idea how to feel about it. Angry that he lied to you, scared because this guy really meant harm, grateful that Felix protected you or sad because Felix had so much to deal with already and you only made it worst...? He sat down lazily and just sighed, brushing his hair back looking the other way, you sat down next to him and placed one hand on his leg, rubbing it soothingly, he didnt react or look at you, he looked broken and so...so fed up.
"why- why didn't you tell me sooner, we could've handled this together, you could've felt much more at ease... i wouldn't have been angry at you i just- we just fell apart because of this and thats why im angry..."
"Your right, but honestly what could i do? what would have you done? do you think you'd be able to make decisions rationally at a time like this?" He said still not looking at you.
No. of course you wouldn't, you probably would've reacted worst, Felix was so strong for handling all of this and it only made you feel worst, you were selfishly only thinking about yourself and how he hurt you but you never stopped to think how he was feeling.
"Im- im sorry, i never thought about how you were feeling, what you were going through i -i was selfish and- i didnt try to think about you at all." He put his finger on your lip, shushing you whilst the other wiped away the tears from your cheeks, when were did you start crying? you felt so safe in his embrace and smiled softly, he did too and it really felt genuine, he untucked the necklace that was under your shirt and looked at it, a wave of nostalgia hit him you could tell this was sensitive for him and it only made him feel worst. You stood on your knees and placed a soft peck on his cheek which he returned back, no words were shared but this felt nice...it felt peaceful like you two were the only ones in the world.
"Y/n...i still have alot to pay him back and i know you want me to stop dealing but its not possible."
"how much do you need to pay him?"
"...£1500"
"w-what the fuck..."
" i know its silly."
"Felix, ill help you , ill work more hours to help pay it back, just please stop...what if you get caught by the police or something worst happens, what if he doesn't stop demanding money- the possibilities are endless."
"you make a fair point, but i dont want you to work for something i did-"
"NO STOP, we will work together now, were in this together i want to help you, please..."
"i- Y/n..." he bit his lip like he was thinking.
"Fine."
YOU ARE READING
The String of wrath (fem!reader x own character)
Teen Fiction"your bodies insane..." This was never meant to work out, it was all a lie, it was all inside your head, it was all just lust. But you loved him.
