It was silent. Everyone asleep. Nothing alive. Even the birds had gone to sleep.
That's what you'd expect, it was 2am.
But two were awake, they stood in the embrace of one another, several emotions spilling out, all whirled into a complicated, shattered relation.
You gripped onto him tighter, digging your nails in, you felt horrible and wanted to let out all your anger, you felt his cold stare gazing down at you, you probably looked stupid, he probably was disgusted at you that you even had the audacity to stand infront of him so close after you were just about to kiss another man....literally only a few days after you accused him of cheating.
He grabbed you by your legs and heaved you up, your legs were now wrapped around his waist, you arms on his neck, he was holding you so tightly like you were a fragile object he couldn't drop, he kicked the door closed with his leg and sat you down on the sofa. you were in between his legs as he looked at you coldly, you hated the way he looked at you and tried grabbing onto him but he slowly backed away, crossing his arms his eyes never faltering.
"Lia told me you would be out." his voice was cold, he seemed so distant, it was dark and deep making you uncomfortable. Why would Lia tell him? you thought she hated him. you just stared at him without saying anything.
"You know i dont mind you going out...drinking and all. B-but." he tried to hold back his increasing anger, you could tell he was restricting himself, if it wasn't you, he probably would have landed a punch or two. "But the fact you got so close to a guy...do you know how much that... fucking hurt y/n?" he said through clenched teeth. He was obviously heart broken and it only made you feel worst. You felt so weak in his presence and ashamed, looking even further down trying to avoid his cold glare. He just scoffed about to walk away when you grabbed his arm.
"F-felixx..pleaase dont go-oo"your voice was slurred, you hadn't really got the alcohol out your system yet.
"How much did you drink y/n?"
"i dont know...Felix im so-sorry i know what i didd is wrongg ple-please just don-t leavee mee..."
"..."
"I- I cant live without you..pleas-see." you were begging and you felt stupid but you were crazy determined at this point, tears washed down your cheeks as you started sniffing, your cheeks and nose lit up pink as your eyes only got puffier.
He sat next to you avoiding you, there was a lot to say, but no words were spoken, an increasing tension building between you two, You sat closer to him and looked him directly in the eye, you grabbed a-hold of his hands and started rubbing circles on it.
"d-dont...shut me out...p-please."
"Your gonna be the death of me y/n..."
"P-PLEASEE" You sounded desperate now and broke down, your voice cracking. if you weren't drunk you'd definitely apologise properly but no words were forming in your head, you just needed him right now. He sighed and picked you up bringing you to the bathroom, he told you to get the alcohol out so you stood on top of the toilet, he held your hair back, you tried but nothing came out, he put two fingers in your mouth and dug in deeper till it reached your throat, kicking your gag reflexes, you threw up, tears spilling , your throat was dry and itchy everything hurt, nothing made sense, you hated this feeling so much. When everything was out you felt so weak and fell backwards resting your head on Felix's chest, breathing heavily. He carefully put water down your throat helping you to drink it, and grabbed you again bringing you to the bed, he sat you down asking if you needed anything.
You were so grateful that despite everything you did tonight he was still looking after you, you sat on your knees and crawled towards him hugging him tightly.
"I-im...Im so sorry, i know what i did is wrong and i cant atone for it, I know i've hurt you a lot and i wouldnt be surprised if you wanted to leave me right now but the fact your still here it...it means so much to me" you hugged tighter making him rub your back and hug you back "Im pretty sure after this it would be stupid to try and restart, you can leave me if you want...but I love you Felix..." you whispered the last part. He hugged you tighter, pulling away and grabbing your shoulders, pulling you down to where he was now on top of you.
He looked down at you with a dark expression, but something else was there, smirking he bent down, his lips brushing against your earlobes, his hot breath giving you goosebumps as he whispered.
"Now why would i leave you..."
The very gesture made your insides twist, breathing heavily he looked at you, your faces only inches apart as he closes the gap kissing you passionately. It was so warm it felt perfect, the way your tongues intertwined with one another, the way you both fought for dominance, the way he bit down on your lip from time to time, the way his hands travelled your body knowing your sensitive spots, small moans escaping both your lips only heating the kiss, your hands tangling his hair pulling him deeper into the kiss... it felt amazing.
but it was all just lust.
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The String of wrath (fem!reader x own character)
Teen Fiction"your bodies insane..." This was never meant to work out, it was all a lie, it was all inside your head, it was all just lust. But you loved him.
