When we were young and oh so beautiful,
Crazy in love oxytocin peaked plentiful,
In the bedroom we explored like Jacque Cousteau,
I'd never been this high with lights down low,
I became an addict under those covers,
I was finally one half of a couple of lovers,
I'm an expert at reliving our younger years,
Unfortunately those thoughts turn into tears,
I want to reach out, grab her, hold on tight,
To a woman that's revolted by my very sight,
We once meant everything to each other,
Until came a day she started to smother,
To this moment I don't know what deprived her of air,
But it was obviously too much for us to bear,
We were now no longer we, but her and I,
I'm heartbroken and she didn't want to try,
Maybe to her I was an act of necessity,
Which made our marriage a bond of brevity,
Levity took flight after the license was signed
But returned for her once divorce aligned,
For me on the other hand misery incited,
From there negativity quickly ignited,
Our unhappy memories played on repeat in my mind,
Routine regret unfolded a manner unkind,
Heartache has me trapped in the past, no forward momentum,
Depression has me sliding in perpetual descension,
A downward spiral laced with memories and tears,
And as I age I've lost strength to fight fears.
It's been decades but time has not assuaged my pain,
I can't see in other women anything to gain,
I'd rather fantasize about those euphoric years,
Those days filled with love and happy tears.
I've tortured myself since searching for remedies,
To these love loss infused maladies,
Help me Lord, convince her to forgive,
So our happily ever after can live.
~Farls Tokley
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Lovelorn Lad
PoetryWARNING: A few of these poems are not suited for children. The following is a collection of poems that are a fair representation of feelings I had and have for a special person or two. As well as a few scattered memories of one night interludes.
