Mío

Treinta y nueve

NOTICE: SUICIDE ATTEMPT  ⚠️
[ this is all from Hans past in New York ]

Hans

"You have schedules, Hansy. You can't just go back." Peterson said with uneasiness in his voice. Kumunot ang noo ko.

"I told the two of you that I will end all of this after the election is over. I want to go back, and no one can stop me. Besides, it's been two months since the election ended. I'm sure Kaleb is waiting for me." Mahinahon kong ani habang pinag-aaralan ang ekspresyon ni Pete. He's not being himself today.

"H-Hans, you can't just leave your w-work. You also have your contracts here, I'm sure he can wait." Kuya Oasis said and that's when I knew something was up. If not, then kuya Oasis won't say this. He will only say that Kaleb doesn't deserve me and I'm better off on my own, or with him.

"What is going on? Why are the two of you acting like this?" Tanong ko at hindi ko alam kung bakit may namumuong galit sa dibdib ko kaya pilit kong pinapakalma ang sarili ko.

I watched how the two of them exchange glances and they can't even meet my eyes. They're really acting so suspicious.

"Tell me or I will really be mad, kuya." Banta ko dahil hindi ko maikalma ang sarili ko. Pakiramdam ko ay hinahabol ako nang kung ano at sa tagal ay hinihingal ako sa pagod at galit. I don't know why I am feeling like this, but I hate it. I feel like I am going to explode.

"It's nothing, okay?" He still denied. Hindi ako umimik at tinitigan ko lamang silang dalawa. They can't still look at me straight and I am really getting pissed.

"Tell me or I will go to the airport right now, I am not kidding." Banta ko at tinitigan naman ako ni kuya Oasis bago napipilitang magsalita.

"They are still together, Kaleb didn't break off the engagement." He said and my heart shattered.

Napuno ng galit at tampo ang puso ko ngunit inalala ko na ako ang nang-iwan sakanya. Maybe he still needs time to do it. He will still do it, right? Because he said I will be the only one he will love whatever happens. He will break off the engagement sooner, so I should just wait.

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"Sorry, Hans. He's still not doing it." Peterson said and I didn't say anything. I didn't even look at him.

Tinitigan ko ang malaking billboard sa harap ng condo ko. It's not just an ordinary billboard, it's a billboard of mine. My very first billboard.

Parang hindi ako ang taong nasa billboard na iyon. The person in it is wearing revealing clothes and posing like a pro temptress. It's not like me to do that at all. But it is myself, I did it.

"Hans," Kuya Oasis called me. I looked at him with my eyes full of tears but I smiled.

"It has only been 7 months, I'm sure he'll do it sooner." I said and looked at the champagne glass full of liquor on the table in front of me. Dinampot ko iyon and I raised it in the air.

"Let's celebrate my very first billboard!"

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