Theo's POV:
"Theo... Are you okay with everyone being here today?"
I fiddled with the bottom of my shirt before I nodded. Tara was in my office, along with Mason, My Dads and all three of my siblings. I sat behind my desk trying to give myself a bit of a buffer. I hadn't spoken again in 2 days, not since I broke down in here with Mason. That scared my Dad because I had only ever been non-verbal when they had found us and brought us home.
"I'd like to read your note, if that's okay with you." She said.
My knee bounced up and down and I shrugged. It's not like it matters; she's probably the only one who hasn't read it.
"Okay.
Hey guys,
If you're reading this then it's because I finally went through with it. I just can't anymore. Every day seems harder than the last. I have so many triggers that I didn't even know were triggers and I keep thinking about what happened. I know we were only taken for a few days but so much happened and it's ingrained in my head.
Paisley, I am so sorry. I was supposed to be the next Alpha and I was supposed to protect you. I tried. I tried so hard to make sure you weren't taken too. I almost got you free but I was too small and weak. I only wish you had stayed hidden in your room. I don't ever blame you for what happened. Taking all the abuse and the punishments they gave was the only thing I could do to protect you. Some days I wish Dad hadn't saved me. I don't want to live with the knowledge that you still suffer when it comes to those days and thats because I couldn't do my job and protect you. I love you... I know it's not the same as saying it outloud but at least I can write it on paper.
Dads. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry. It's not your fault and you guys have done everything you could think of to help me. I wish it did. I'm just too messed up. I love you... again I know it's not the same and I'm sorry about that too.
Laelynn, I am sorry for leaving. I really am. I always wanted to be around to see you find your mate, and to maybe see you walk down the aisle just like you have always wanted with a big fancy wedding. I wanted to dance with you and to see you become the mom you've always dreamed of. I'm sorry I won't be. I love you. I know I havent told you enough but I really really do.
Apollo, I know you must hate me right now. I'm so sorry. I'm so so so sorry. I burdened you with letting you in too close and making you keep secrets when that's the hardest thing for you to have to do. When things got bad I should have pushed you away, instead I taught you to be like me and to bottle things up. Don't be like me. Please. You have finally gotten your mate and I couldn't be happier. Don't let this and don't ever let me, keep you from moving on and being happy. I love you, Pollo. I always have. Even when I was jealous that Dad was giving you more time than me. I am in awe of you because of how strong you are. So stay strong, Baby Bro.
Mason.... I don't even know what to say. Saying I'm sorry to you doesn't seem like it'd ever be good enough. Please know I never wanted to hurt you, ever. I just can't live through it anymore. I love you... I love you and I release you. Please find someone else and be happy. You can do so much better than me.
Love Always, Theo."
How does hearing this over make you feel?"
I had put my elbows on my desk and was resting my face in my hands. The heels of my palms pressed into my eyes as I tried to keep my tears at bay. I shrugged.
"Okay, I'm going to need you to find some words. Even just one or two." Tara said.
I shrugged again and cleared my throat. "Sad."
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Infinite Temptations
WerewolfFor Theodore Michael Arson, 23 year old Alpha of the Firestone Pack, life was simple. Be the best leader and Alpha he could be by following in the footsteps of his fathers, Ryan and Parker. Care for his younger siblings, including his twin sister, P...