The Dark Side Of The Sun

I can't leave you

Tom dragged me out side and threw me inside his car I could see his gun sticking out from his pocket, maybe he was gonna shoot me. I looked outside the window it was afternoon now I wanted to accept my fate so I wasn't gonna beg for my life or something, I'd rather die than living like this. A small tear rolled down my cheek I kept looking outside the window, the sky was beautiful right now I can't wait to be there soon if I don't end up in hell. We stopped at the same park I used to go to. Tom opened my door, I climbed out of his car and he already had his gun out in his hand.

He directed where I should stand I stood there he instructed me and then I closed my eyes. I was waiting for him to pull the trigger, I stood there silent crying with my eyes closed I was still waiting for him to pull the trigger but it felt like I was standing there forever. I opened my eyes the last time to see his beautiful face one last time and try to remember his warm comforting side and his beautiful eyes and his warm touch, behind all his anger and sadness he was a good person, even though he had killed many people and made mistakes I know that he has a heart somewhere deep deep. I couldn't deny it any more I was in love with the man that basically kidnapped me and beat me up and ruined me completely mentally. I stood there silent crying while looking in his eyes, I wasn't crying because I was afraid to die, I was crying because of the pain in his eyes, even though he probably deserved it, it hurt me seeing him like this I didn't know what to say, he couldn't do it, tears was rolling down from his eyes he stood there pointing the gun at me shaking, but he couldn't pull the trigger. Suddenly he fell down on his knees and tossed the gun on the ground, he stared to punch the ground until his knuckles started to bleed. I sat down besides him and tried to hug him, he pulled away and screamed "you did this to me, you made me weak" I didn't know what to say I felt so sorry but I didn't know what to say, he put his head into his hands and kept crying "Melanie just go just leave I know you want to escape just leave i can drop you off at your house and I will never contact you ever again" he said

"go where back home?! I'd haven't been in school since for ever and you can't just put me though hell and drop me off-" he cut me off "but I thought you wanted to leave me! That's all you've ever wanted you hate me you hate when I touch you or try to speak with you! Melanie you can't stand me!" He screamed back at me

I couldn't even admit to my self that I was just making up excuses to not leave him, the truth is that I can't leave him even though I want to I can't be with out him he was like a drug to me I can't stop. "I can't!" I screamed back at him

"What?! You're saying that you don't get me! I don't get you at all Melanie"

"I can't leave you" i whispered while looking down. He looked at me and our eyes locked again just like the first time we met I tried to hug him again and he didn't pull away this time, he hugged me back tightly "I'm so sorry Melanie" he cried "it's ok" i whispered while my tear's kept falling I don't know how long we sat like this for. He kept stroking my hair and saying sorry.