thoughts of me and you

55. ✨we aren't dating✨

sigh.

@Eeyoremylove
this is dedicated to you.
i oughta clarify that ✨ we aren't dating ✨

BUT
like
mhm

ok
so
first things first
he's older
and like a foot taller than me
i'm 5'5" and he's like 6'4" (according to him but who trusts a boy's height?)
i won't say like where he's from or his name or anything because ✨ p r i v a c y ✨
for both him and me

we are going to call him ✨b o y✨
because i'm lame like that

anyways
so
like
i gotta say this first
he's my coworker
I KNOW THAT WONT END WELL IF WE DO END UP DATING AND THEN BREAK UP

we talk a lot (text and recently facetiming)
i think the latest i went to bed because of him was like 3 am
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
kill me.

also
if you didn't know
this is the first time i've actually taken interest in a boy
(my 5 year old self might disagree but that lasted not even like a month or whatever)

whenever i snap him
he ✨A L W A Y S✨ saves the ones of me *side eye*
and calls me cute or pretty O.o

he's a theatre nerd.
and y'all know how much i love theatre.
it's actually insane.

he likes harry potter
and i'm forcing him to read six of crows

i was working once and like he dropped by (for some unknown reason)
and he like bought like a cute little stuffy
it's one that you can like flip inside out to have different emotions
and then
HE LEFT IT
this was like at the start
so i was delulu AS FUCK
so i tried to give it back to him
then later
when i asked why he gave it to me he was like "becauseeeeeeeeeee"
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

also
another thing
my sister
threatened him
i think she knows what's up

he also doesn't like it when i don't eat but don't blame me
i simply just don't like eating
and i feel gross when i do
BUT THATS ANOTHER STORY THAT I WONT TELL RN (or ever)

he's good at singing guys.
like.
ok-

he doesn't go to sleep before i do (unless he passes out)
he said once like "i'd rather talk to you than go to sleep"

and like a few days ago he was cleaning right so he wasn't on his phone
THEN HE TEXTED LIKE "i'm sorry i didn't reply. not talking to you was awful"

oh yeah
i guess i should say this
1) he gave me one of his fidget rings (i jokingly said he should give it to me)
2) he bought me iced tea (I FUCKING LOVE ICED TEA) and chocolate (CHOCOLATE IS SO GOOD)
3) we went on an outing (NOT A DATE... maybe i am still delulu) and he REFUSED to let me pay for my own book and didn't let me open any doors
4) he came over to my house on new years (AND NO. WE DID  N O T  kiss. he did hold my hand tho... while we were watching a musical

UGH
WHAT IS THIS BOY DOING TO ME

yk that song from hercules?
the one that meg sings
"no chance. no way. i won't say it no no."
it's called 'i won't say (i'm in love)'
i'll put it here (it's kind of literally me)

anyways
that's all for now
i'll update you guys if you want

HAVE YOU EVER FELT LIKE THIS? IF YOU HAVE CAN YOU HELP ME?
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MWAH
KISSES AND CROISSANTS 💋🥐