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ok
so
there are many reasons i haven't dated and most likely will not be dating for a while
and because you guys are tOtAlLy curious as to why i don't/won't
i will make a list
1) fictional people
2) i don't think i'm good enough
- i don't think i have enough energy
- i don't think i have enough love to give
- i don't think i'm mentally stable for a relationship
3) i'm fucking scared
- if i get my heartbroken, i will definitely be worse than i am now (and i'm rlly bad)
4) i've experienced some sort of heartbreak/break up before and it fucking sent me off the deep end and this was more than two years ago, i'm still slightly effected by it (ik i should move on)
5) um. so. i might have some really high standards
6) i just don't find people my age that attractive and the people that i know have a really shitty personality (NOT ALL I LOVE MY FAM AND FRIENDS)
7) i don't want to be judged
wanna know my standards? other than fictional and mattheo?
no? well. i'm telling you anyways.
- can cook (bc i can't and i'm lazy but i'll bake as long as you do it with me)
- will watch movies/shows/MUSICALS with me and not be on their phone
- they can say no
- non-toxic and all that
- is passionate
- accepting
- talkative (so that i don't have to. i'm a major introvert)
- reads (not excessively but like...)
- liked games
- cuddles and small kisses on the forehead (i'm a sucker for that OR IN THE NECK SORRY)
- knows how to braid (bc i don't)
- quality time
- good hygiene 💀
- co-mu-ni-ca-tion.
- loyal (obviously.)
- job (idc if it's full time or part time i just don't want to work my ass off while they lay around like a housecat)
- clothes shopping (even tho i hate clothes shopping bc i feel like i'm dying after i get out of the change room)
- play fight (i think it's low key so cute)
- cute pet names (NOT: princess, doll, baby, bae, queen, kitty MAYBE: babe (depends on mood/context), sweetheart YES: darling (folds), (my) love (folds), something special (ex. mattheo calling bea 'my goddess'), angel)
CITEȘTI
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