I feel like all I have been doing these past few days is eating , sleeping , showering and lying in bed . I haven't been assigned a work duty yet but I so badly want one , even if it's for like 20 minutes a day , I just need something to do .
"What do you want?" Chang asked
"Conditioner, coke and those noodles" I said
"What flavour?"
"Any" I said not caring
"Visioning hours are starting , do you have anyone coming to visit?" Morello asked as I walked away from commissary
"My mom probably" I said praying that she would show up , she was and still is disappointed i am in here
I flung my shit on my bed in my cube as I got back to the dorms and made my way to the visitors room . I only opened up my visitors to my mom and my two sisters and I know someone is here today but I'm not sure who .
"Brie" I smiled as I walked into the visitors room
"Dana , I'm so happy you're okay" she smiled as I sat at the little table
"Yeah , I'll be fine this prison is like weird , everyone just walks about , there's like no bars or anything" I said
"Cool, I don't wanna talk about you in here , it makes me worried , you spoke to Viper?" Brie asked
"No , why would I ?" I asked
"He was at moms two days ago , asking for her to help him get on your visitors card thing . Mom just told him to get lost , that you want nothing to do with him"
"Why would he go to moms?" I asked
"I don't know , Sandra was there "
"Have they two like made a pact ? Don't visit Dana in prison because they two are better than everyone in here" I laughed
"No , mom doesn't want to see you in here and Sandra's a stuck up bitch"
"Any new boyfriends since I've been locked up?" I asked
"Not me, I'm still with hank but Sandra's got a new one , I don't even know his name but he's a stuck up banker , with a shit load of money" and she continued talking about how her and hank are getting on and my other sister shitty new boyfriend , seriously that girl can't stick to the same man for 6 months .
While my sister rambled on I was starring at Stella , her stare was on me and she was smirking , like a really hot smirk , oh shit
"Earth to Dana" Brie said , me turning my attention back to her
"What?" I asked
"You've got the hots for that girl and I would to if I was stuck in here " she laughed
"I don't"
"I know you Dana and I mean the real you " fuck why is my sister not stupid
Brie always stuck up for me against my mom and sister , Sandra . She always understood me , I never really came out properly , I always had this feeling but I pushed it away because I was always told it was wrong but the first night I spent with a girl it felt so right. My family were always the religious kind but I wasn't . My mom always said I was 'a rebellious kid that she was disappointed in' but I couldn't give a shit what she thought . I was happy with who I was and who I was becoming , she was not happy living her perfect life .
"Even if I did , nothing will come of it " I said truthfully
"You never know unless you try and don't worry I won't tell mom"
"Tell mom I need her to visit next week along with Sandra but I need you to come too" I said
"Will do" Brie nodded
The rest of the visitation we spoke about me and how I felt being here , she also mentioned that she would visit every second week , which I was so grateful for .
"Was that your sister?" I turned to see Stella behind me
"Yeah"
"She looks like you in a way" Stella said catching up to me
"She's older than me so I look like her you mean" I said smugly
"Yeah whatever"
"You been assigned a job yet?" Stella asked
"Not yet , I put down for gardening or electrical"
"They are both completely different things . Never saw you as the gardening type" Stella smirked
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked
"You look more of the wannabe bad ass type" Stella laughed
"I'm not a wannabe of anything or anyone , remember that" and with that I walked away from her
How dare she label me as a wannabe bad ass . I don't even understand why I'm so pissed at her for saying that , it was a joke probably but here I am taking this to heart . Fuck , prison is messing with my emotions and making me a cranky little bitch or that is just my personality , either way I'm pissed !!
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Literally writing this makes me want to rewatch all of oitnb . Also I hope for the love of everything that Stella and Nicky are in season 4 , and I hope they two have a thing because that would be perfect !
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Fanfiction"I've never wanted someone as much as I want you" "Then don't let me go" Book#1
