Angel Reese
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"Whoever fumbled you a idiot" Ja'Mire said before planting a kiss on my neck, "You so special"
I just laid there feeling so out of place, like this doesn't feel right. He reached for my shorts before I stopped him and sat up.
"Stop" I demanded before he gave me a concerned look, "Just stop"
"What's wrong, you a virgin?" he asked before I shook my head 'no', "I'll take it slow and be gent —"
"No Ja'Mire I'm not a virgin, I just don't wanna do this with you"
"I'm ready, what you mean?" He asked now getting aggressive, "Angel be for real"
"I don't give a fuck if you're ready, you heard what I said" I got up out of his bed and slid on my slides before looking over at my keys
Before I could grab them from the nightstand, he grabbed them. He's really showing his true colors, colors I've never seen before
"So you just think you finna go?"
"Give me my keys" I said now watching him get out the bed and turn on the light
"You acting weird as fuck you dumb bitch"
"Because I don't wanna fuck?" I asked not really wanting a answer, "I'll be weird just give me my keys"
He threw them on the floor before I snatched them up. I left out making my way to my car and pulling off
This nigga is gonna be the death of me. I'm so damn tired of him.
I pulled up in a parking spot at Flau'jae's apartment complex. I'm nervous to go knock on her door, she might not even answer
For a moment I just sat there debating before grabbing my phone and calling her. It rung for so long my heart begin to break before I heard her pick up
"Wassup Angel" she answered sounding annoyed with me already
"I miss you" I said instantly breaking down in tears, "I miss you so much, I wanna talk you"
"Hold on —stop crying, where you at?"
"I'm outside of your apartment complex, Flau'jae I miss you. I'm sorry for ign—" she cut me off as I wiped away my running tears
"Angel it's cool, you still got the second key to my apartment?"
"Yeah"
"I'm not home I'm at the studio right now, so go in. I'll be there, I'm on my way" she said before we hung up the phone
I got out and made my way in seeing that nothing changed. I went to her room and the first thing I noticed was a females necklace on her dresser.
As much as I want to get mad, I'm not gonna get mad. I do feel a type of way because even though technically we're single, I don't like that.
I laid down for what seemed like forever until I heard a door close. Flau'jae came walking in the room with a blank facial expression
"I'm just gonna say this, I don't wanna argue" she said basically giving me a warning
"I'm not here to argue, I promise I just want to talk to you" I said before she nodded and sat down beside me as I sat up
"I'm listening"
"I wanna fix this, you the one I wanna be with so this don't feel right. I hate being on bad terms with you" I expressed before the tears came running down
She pulled me into a hug and it was just quiet for a few seconds. For the past month my life has been a literal nightmare.
Maybe I do have separation anxiety when it comes to her because I lowkey felt depressed. I'll admit I used Ja'Mire as a distraction.
I didn't want to feel alone or drained, but it honestly backfired on me. I knew from the jump that I didn't want to break up, I was just angry
Angry at the fact that she would even pull something like that. Angry at the fact that she couldn't control her liquor. Angry that our relationship obviously meant nothing.
I was angry and frustrated, which I had the right to be. Although she did the utmost to get my attention, it showed me that she cares.
Yes it took a month for me to calm down, I just needed time.
"Please stop crying, I apologize for disrespecting you and being so careless. It honestly was a mistake because that wouldn't of happened if I was sober"
"I accept your apology and I'm sorry for ignoring you" I said being sincere before she raised a eyebrow while wiping my face
"You ain't gotta be sorry cause you had every right to. I understand, I just hope that you don't look at me different. I'm not no cheater"
"Those threats that you were sending to my phone only made me realize that you got crazier. I don't look you differently though"
She busted out laughing before I did the same because she knows she's crazy. She definitely has me beat when it comes to who's crazier
"You know I'm with all the dumb shit" she said being serious, "So let's talk about it, who that nigga?"
"Is that a rhetorical question?" I asked nervously feeling my stomach turn into a knot
"No"
"He's somebody I met while out to eat and basically wants to be more than friends" I said hoping that it didn't sound as bad as it is
"That hug and hickey talked for itself , but I'm chilling. Since when you like niggas, you ain't telling me something?"
"I made it clear to him beforehand that I only wanted to be friends. He kind of pushed me into one of his traps"
"No, you just was being heedless" she said before I scrunched my face up at her
"You talking as if it's not a bitch necklace on your dresser" I said before she quickly turned around and looked at it
"She's just a friend" she said and by the expression on her face I could tell something was off
"Elaborate"
"She somebody who I was venting to, I ain't gone lie we did kiss a few times. It wasn't nothing heartfelt about it"
"So y'all aren't friends" I said correcting her, "Have you ever seen me kiss Endiya?"
"Well shit— no, I get what you saying. She wanna take it further, but I had to let her know we strictly friends"
"Well now she's just strictly cut off" I said before she gave me a look, "I'm not playing"
"No, I don't have no problem with cutting her off. I just don't want her to feel no type of way" she said before I shrugged no really caring
"You don't need to be friends with somebody who wants to be with you"
"I'm fully aware of that"
"Okay, and before you say it I will cut all ties with Ja'Mire. He's — never mind" I stopped myself because knowing it'll rile her up
"He what?" She asked causing me to laugh nervously, "He gone fuck around and find out that's what"
This girl is on another level of crazy.
"I was gonna say something else but it's fine. I just want to put all of this behind us and be happy"
"We can cause I don't wanna dwell on this, I missed you" she said causing me to smile and pull her into a hug
We shared a long passionate kiss before pulling away. I'm so happy that everything between us is good now.
I feel at peace again and I wanna be at peace with the love of my life. That's it, that's all.
"I love you"
"I love you more, mamas"
