QUIN (GxG)

Quin-40

Quin

Part 2

(A/N: BS ahead. Guys, si author hannarie_21 ang nagsulat, grabe, ang galing galing 🙌👏👏. Ulitin nyo chap 39 saka ito para mas feel. K? Enjoy.)

I was busy biting my lower lip to stop myself from moaning. Sa sobrang diin, pakiramdam ko magdudugo na din yung labi ko sa pagpipigil na mapaungol ng malakas sa ginagawa ni Dylan.

Bakit ganoon?

This isn't the first time someone did this to me but it really feels like this is the first time that someone did this right.

Just like how I wanted.

Dama ko yung bigat ng titig ni Dylan. She's staring closely at me as if making sure that she's giving me pleasure and not hurting me.

Damn, Quin. This is Dylan's first for sure. You have to be responsive and expressive. Why do you have to restrain yourself?

"I-I.." I choke with the words I'm about to say.

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi salubungin na lang yung mga titig ni Dylan.

Wala akong tiwala sa boses ko ngayon. Halo-halong emosyon yung nararamdaman ko habang nandito ako at hinahayaan lang ito sa ginagawa nito.

Truth is, I don't trust myself. I feel vulnerable as Dylan is taking control of my body. At hindi ko alam kung bakit hinahayaan ko ito. Kung bakit gusto ko itong pagbigyan.

This pleasure. This exact feeling that I feel euphoric is making me weak. Pakiramdam ko hinahayaan ko na din si Dylan na angkinin lahat lahat ng ako. Yung tipong pumapayag na akong mamarkahan nito at maging pag-aari na din nito.

Body and soul.

Is this how close two people can get?

Masyadong intimate.

This doesn't feel self-gratification anymore. Yung hindi ko na lang ginagawa dahil gusto kong magtanggal ng stress, magpalipas ng oras, o makalimot panandali sa mga problema ko.

Having sex with Dylan is like sharing myself to her and not just an act. Like trusting her to see my vulnerable side and making her happy. And surprisingly, it's making me undeniably happy too.

I love her. I really do. Because if I am not, I will never ever allow her to do this.

As if understanding the state I'm currently in, marahang pinagdikit ni Dylan yung mga noo naming dalawa. Dama ko pa yung mainit na hininga nito na tumatama sa mukha ko.

Mas gumaan din yung kapit nito sa batok ko habang abala pa din yung kanang kamay nito.

Her fingers are slowly going in and out of my core as if she has been there before, as if she knows what she's doing, and what exactly I want.

Magkaiba kami ni Dylan. I knew it.

Dylan wants it hard and fast.

But I want this so painfully slow. I want to cherish this moment with her that I am afraid to end it so soon. Yung kahit alam ko na pwede naman ulitin, at siguradong mauulit naman, gusto kong namnamin lahat ng bawat segundo kasama ito.

Is it possible that she knows it too?

Humigpit yung kapit ko sa bewang nito ng maramdaman na bumaba yung labi nito sa balikat ko. She's kissing my skin so lightly as her teeth is grazing my skin. It's sending fire from my skin down to my core. Yung dampi lang ng labi nito pero pakiramdam ko mas lalo lang nag-aapoy yung pagnanasa ko sa babaeng ito.

I know exactly that from this moment, moving forward, I will remember how this woman slowly dismantled the armor that I put around myself.

And I couldn't stop myself from biting my lips again to suppress my loud moans when her tongue trailed the veins that connected from my bare shoulder trailing up my neck. Her fingers are still on me which are sending me to insanity.

"Dylan.."

Hinaplos nito yung pisngi ko.

Alam ko na kahit malamig yung kwarto dahil sa aircon ay pinagpapawisan pa din ako. Malala. Pakiramdam ko nga ay inaapoy na ko ng lagnat.

"Move, Quin." Dylan whispers as she bit my skin that earned another loud groan from me. As if encouraging me to take control because she knows how control freak I am around her.

But no. I won't do it. Kailangan kong patunayan dito na kaya ko din sumuporta. I'm good in giving emotional support too.

"Damn it, Dylan." I cursed under my breath when her warm breath and soft lips started trailing my upper body. Ang hirap magpigil.

"I know how hard it is for you to let me take control, so control your pace." nag-aalang sabi nito habang hinahaplos pa din yung pisngi ko.

I grit my teeth. Hindi ba nito alam kung gaano kalala yung epekto nito sakin? Her innocence is sending me on my edge. Gusto ko na tuloy pagpalitin yung pwesto naming dalawa at tapusin yung sinimulan nito.

Pero ayoko. Ayokong maramdaman nito na hindi ito mahalaga. Ayokong masaktan ito at isipin na hindi ko nagugustuhan yung ginagawa nito.

"I want it." Mariing ipinikit ko yung mga mata ko habang dumidiin yung kapit ng mga kamay sa gilid nito para ireassure ito na gusto ko yung ginagawa nito. "Just take it.. slow."

Another soft moan escaped my lips as she change the pace of her fingers. It's starting to have that slow but steady pace. Mukhang nasasanay na din ito dahil may pressure na iyon at hindi na masyadong paiba iba ng rhythm.

Her lips are still trailing the length of my body.

Pakiramdam ko anumang oras ay sasabog na lang ako. Like a detonated bomb that's ticking and will shred into pieces while waiting for it's timer to end.

Itinulak ako ni Dylan pasandal sa headboard. Pawisan na din yung mukha nito. Pulang-pula yung mukha. But there's a glint of determination in her eyes to finish what she started.

And just like what I always do when she's on her edge, she started caressing me with her touch. Her left thumb found my lips and gently caress it with her fingers.

"Magdudugo na yung labi mo, Quin."

Pakiramdam ko tuyong-tuyo yung lalamunan ko ng kusang bumuka yung bibig ko para magsalita.

Kusang bumaba naman yung labi ni Dylan para basain yung labi ko. The warmth of her mouth, the sweetness of her tongue, and the taste of her lips made me want to end this madness. I couldn't hold it anymore.

Inayos ko yung pwesto naming dalawa. It's not fair that I am the only one feeling this kind of pleasure. I want to be with her as I ride it off.

Dumiin yung kapit ko kay Dylan habang kusang gumagalaw na yung balakang ko pasalubong dito. My mouth is ravishing her lips.

I drove my tongue inside her mouth, setting off another moan that's music to my ears. She was quite an instrument to play, so finely tuned, and if touched right, could make the most glorious sounds— raw, intense, absolutely delicious noises of pleasure as my tongue is still plundering her mouth like my fingers are working down on her too.

Pareho na kaming pawisan habang walang gustong magpatalo. Parehong may gustong patunayan.

How could it be not a sin to be that innocently beautiful? She's like a temptress that's encouraging me to commit numerous sins.

Damn!

Dylan grabbed my hair, yanked and pulled me closer as she's coming down her senses.

I won.

Or maybe not.

She still keeps thrusting her fingers inside me, crooking it, and hitting me in spots that turned my moans into one long, suppressed low-pitched orgasm.

Dama ko yung malakas na pagsabog ng kung ano mula sa katawan ko. I came embarrassingly fast that I could feel my body shaking in delirium as I reach my peak.

Dylan shuddered against me, keeping me steady, her legs quaking, and when she slowed down to look at me, I saw her hair was a wild tumble and her face was glowing.

A contented smile formed my lips.

Ang sabi nila when you're coming off your senses from a sexual bliss, you'll see fireworks. Yung tipong nakakapanghina at tila mawawalan ka ng lakas. At habang bumababa yung pakiramdam na iyon, unti-unti kang mawawalan ng gana sa lahat ng bagay at ang tanging gusto mo na lang ulit ay mapag-isa. Na doon na lang natatapos lahat.

At pagkatapos, isa-isa mong pagsisihan kung bakit mo ginawa. Kung bakit ka nagpadala sa panandaliang pagnanasa at hinayaan na dalahin ka noon.

Because sex is nothing but a mere act of pleasuring your body. Just something you do to satisfy your sexual needs. Ganoon lang iyon. Ganoon ko iyon tingnan noon.

But they're wrong. I am wrong. Lahat ng inaakala kong konsepto na kalakip niyon ay naiiba sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.

Malayong-malayo yung ngayon na kasama ko si Dylan sa nararamdaman ko sa mga babaeng dinadala ko noon para pagpalipasan.

With Dylan, I did not see fireworks. There's no blinding lights. Walang nakakabinging ingay. Walang nakakapagod. In fact, I feel exactly the opposite.

There's no confusion. All I see is clarity. All I could feel is I am so sure and I do understand where and whom I am with.

All I could see clearly is the reddening face of the woman I love, sweats on her forehead, with a proud grin pasted on her lips. Tila ba proud na proud ito na para bang napakahirap ng bagay na ginawa nito at isang achievement dito na maangkin din ako.

At kung kanina ay nahihiya ako, ngayon naman ay hindi ko mapigilan ang hindi mapangiti. Yung ngiti na unti-unting nauwi sa mahinang pagtawa.

There's really nothing to be ashamed of in front of Dylan. I feel safe. Secured. And loved.

Kung yung mga babaeng dinadala ko dati ay nagmamadali akong paalisin pagkatapos, kay Dylan naman ay takot na takot akong bigla itong mawala at iwan ako.

I'm scared that after seeing my weakness, after baring my soul, letting her in to see how vulnerable I can be, she'll hurriedly leave me.

Pero mukhang wala namang balak si Dylan na iwan ako. In fact, kung mahigpit yung yakap ko dito, mas mahigpit yung yakap nito na tila ba takot na takot din ito na basta ko na lang itong itulak at paalisin.

Parang bata na isinandal pa nito yung mukha niya sa leeg ko. Yung mga kamay nito ay pumulupot sa leeg ko habang nakadikit yung katawan sa katawan ko.

Dylan is different. Way different.

And it's not fair that I am comparing her to my past experiences because I know everything and everyone will just be pale in comparison.

"Nangangalay na yata legs ko." reklamo nito.

I kissed the top of her head. Mas dumiin yung pagkakahapit ko dito. "Tired?"

Umiling ito. "Hindi. Gusto ko lang ng ganito kalapit sayo."

Humiga ako sa kama at hinatak ito papunta sa ibabaw ko para maiunat nito yung mga hita nito. Baka nga nanginginig at nangangalay pa. Ako ngang mas matangkad dito hindi nagrereklamo.

"Gusto ko ng ganito." Umayos ito para maidikit yung kanang pisngi sa leeg ko. Yung mga kamay ay nakayakap sa bewang ko.

"You're so close that I could even hear your heart beating wildly." pabirong sabi ko dito. "Kinakabahan ka pa din ba?" dagdag pang-aasar ko pa.

Pumihit yung ulo nito paangat pagkatapos ay hinawakan yung magkabilang pisngi ko na tila ba may naalalang napakaimportante.

"Bakit?" natatawang pinisil ko yung ilong nito. Seryosong seryoso kasi yung mukha.

"Titigan mo ko. Tandaan mo 'tong mukha kong 'to ha? Ako na lang ang pwedeng gumawa sayo non. Mangako ka!"

Hinampas pa ako nito sa balikat ng mas lalo lang lumakas yung tawa ko.

How could I not?

She's so freakin' cute and adorable. Seriously ayon talaga yung naiisip nito?

Akala ko naman magrereklamo ito dahil sa pagod. O kaya naman dahil nagugutom na ito. O di kaya naman ay gusto na nito matulog.

"Quin!"

Umiling lang ako.

Hindi ba nito ramdam kung paano ako natutunaw sa ginawa nya kanina? O kung gaano kalakas yung epekto niya sa sistema ko? Paano pa ako maghahanap ng iba gayung nandito at kasama ko na sya?

"Quin, mangako ka." Parang batang nagtatampo na ulit pa ni Dylan na pinipilit na iangat yung kamay ko at manumpa sa harapan nito.

"Geez." I let out a wide grin before kissing her senseless. I kissed her mouth as if it's our last. I want her to feel all the words I can't say aloud because it's too corny. Gaya nya pa ko sa kanya.

At nang tila wala na naman ito sa katinuan at nakalimutan na yata sa isip kung ano yung pinag-uusapan namin kanina, saka ako sumagot. "I promise." mahinang bulong ko dito na sapat lang para marinig nito.

"Promise what? Kulang." kiniskis nito yung pisngi nito sa leeg ko. Mukhang hindi naman nito nakalimutan yung pinag-uusapan namin.

"Anong kulang?"

"Sabihin mo na sakin ka lang at hindi ka na maghahanap ng iba."

Ngumisi lang ako. I will never do that. That's too mushy. Napakasoft.

Isa pa bakit ako mangangako kung plano ko din naman na gawin?

"Ayoko."

"Quin naman e!" Malakas na angal ni Dylan. "Napakadaya mo!"

Tumawa lang ako at saka binuhat ito. Nanlalagkit ako. Gusto kong maligo at magrelax. Lahat yata ng nerves ko sa katawan nagising sa ginawa nitong babaeng 'to. Pero dahil sigurado naman ako na magtatampo si Dylan pag binitiwan ko ito, isasama ko na lang sya magbabad muna sa bathtub.

Isa pa, may utang pa ako dito. It's about time to punish her for all the headaches she caused me the previous days. Saka yung pang-uunder nito sakin sa opisina sa harap pa ng mga empleyado ko. Hindi ko pa nakakalimutan yon.

"Quin!" Isang hampas pa ulit sa balikat ko yung ginawa nito.

Hindi ako sumagot kaya mas lalo itong naglikot. Kinagat ko yung nakaexpose na balikat nito dahilan para matahimik ito. Ang likot kasi nito masyado. Baka mabitiwan ko at bumagsak kami sa sahig pareho.

When our stares met, I swallowed the lump on my throat. Her eyes are looking at me innocently. As if waiting for me to own her again.

"Stop doing that, Dylan. Mamaya pa kita itatali. Baka magbago ang isip ko at ngayon ko na gawin. Mamili ka. Maliligo tayo o itatali na kita?" pananakot ko dito.

Namutla naman si Dylan ng marinig yung sinabi ko at saka tahimik na isinubsob na lang yung mukha patago sa leeg ko.

Tch. Such a baby. My baby.

What have I done to deserve her?

And I realized, in a moment that terrified me, that I want this with her, forever. Fuck! I want to spend the rest of my life with Dylan.

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