It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 29

Chapter 29 (trigger warning)

"Do I still want to have kids if I ever get married?" Pag-ulit ko sa tanong ni Liam. Tumingin ako sa malayo habang binubuo ang mga salita na sasagot sa katanungan niya.

I cleared my throat. "For now, I don't want to have kids... But I don't know if I will consider having one once I get married." Mahina akong natawa. "Ni hindi ko nga alam kung mabubuntis pa ako 'e."

I'm just so scared to experience losing a child. I was so ready to be a single mom. I'm alright raising my kid alone and showing him the best things in life that I couldn't have. I was waiting for him, but my waiting was over when it was reported to me that there's no heartbeat. It felt like my world just stopped moving 'cause I'm living for that child.

I pressed my lips together and bowed my head. "I just don't want to risk it again."

Liam placed his hand into mine that was lying on my lap. And without saying a word, I feel comforted and understood. It's like we could read each other's thoughts by only looking. We smiled and laughed afterwards because of how oblivious we were.

After eating outside, the kids started to familiarize themselves with the orphanage while some were playing already in their rooms. The adults were just in the living room, drinking coffee while the television was on. Beside me was Liam playing on his phone like he's an ipad kid. I don't even know what he's playing, but I could hear firing guns and he's serious.

Umupo si Camilla sa tabi ko at lumiyad palapit sa tenga ko. "Ano ng ganap sa inyo?" Tanong niya kaya awkward akong ngumiti. "You guys didn't even hesitate to hug each other intimately a while ago. Guess, something is already going on between you two."

Chismosa rin pala 'tong isang 'to.

Kumawala ang pilit na tawa sa bibig ko. "Hindi ko naman siguro kailangang sagutin 'yung tanong mo, ano?"

She tilted her head and agreed by nodding. "Yeah, I can conclude naman while looking at you guys."

Umalis ang atensyon niya sa akin at dumako ito sa television. Sumipsip naman ako ng kape at napunta kay Liam ang tingin. "Looking serious," sabi ko sa kanya habang pinapanood siyang maglaro sa phone niya.

When I talked, he exited playing his game and hid his phone in his pocket. My forehead creased. "Why did you stop?" I asked.

"Just bored," matipid niyang sagot kaya mas lalo akong naguluhan. I really can't predict him sometimes. Kanina lang ay ang seryoso niyang naglalaro tapos biglang sasabihin niyang bored siya.

"Gusto mo ng doughnut? Ikukuha kita," sumunod niyang sabi. Umiling ako kaagad. Nang makasagot ay tumayo na siya at dumiretso papuntang kusina para kumuha ng doughnut. Sinundan ko siya ng tingin hanggang makarating siya sa kusina.

My attention was just on him when suddenly an afternoon news came. My ears were listening, but I didn't bother looking at the screen. It was a light feeling, when suddenly my ears throbbed.