It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

Maybe I was being hard on myself all this time... Pretending and convincing myself that I have moved on. I pity myself. I feel bad for always breaking myself for others' sake. I thought it's not going to hurt anymore, but it still does. Everyone is going forward already, but I'm still right where he left me. I was cursing his name... Screaming until I lost my voice and my senses. Why does love have to be this painful?

Hindi ko magawang tumigil sa paghagulgol. Ngayon na lang ako umiyak nang ganito. Gano'n kapag inipon mo nang matagal. Kapag punong-puno ka na, simpleng tanong lang na kung ayos ka lang ba, pakiramdam mo sasabog ka.

"I-I'm so sorry..." I apologize while still crying in front of Liam. This is kind of embarrassing. It's the second time that he saw me crying for the same reason, but I just can't stop myself. I feel like I need to let everything out.

"You don't need to apologize," he assured me, but I still feel embarrassed. I couldn't sense my breathing, it felt like I was hyperventilating, but suddenly I felt Liam's hand rubbing my back. "Here... Use my handkerchief."

Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang mga kamay kong nakatakip sa mukha ko pagkatapos pasalit-salit na tiningnan ang panyo at siya.

"H-Hindi ko pa nababalik 'yung panyong binigay mo sa akin last year. Huwag na..." pagtanggi ko dahil nahihiya din ako sa kanya. Pakiramdam ko tuloy ang lambot-lambot at nanliliit ako sa harapan niya.

"Kukunin mo o ipapakain ko sa 'yo 'tong panyo?"

Sumama ang tingin ko sa kanya kahit humihikbi pa ako. Padabog kong kinuha ang panyo sa kamay niya at pinunasan ang mga luha ko. "Bwiset ka," bulong ko. Kahit nakikita na akong umiiyak, nagawa pa din akong inisin.

He stopped rubbing his hand on my back and stepped back a little to put a distance between us. "What are you doing here? You're supposed to be working, right?" When I finally calmed down, I looked somewhere else because right now, I'm still ashamed of crying in front of him for the second time. Why do I keep running into him whenever I'm crying?

"Bibisitahin ko lang si Eloise. Hinahanap daw ako," sagot niya. Sumilip naman ang tingin ko sa braso niyang napilay. May nakapulupot pa rin na benda du'n, hinihintay niya pa ring gumaling. Makakapagtrabaho ba siya nang ganyan ang sitwasyon niya?

"Excuse me," he said, the reason why my brows furrowed.

"What—" I was about to ask him why he said that, but I wasn't able to finish asking because his hand reached for my hair and his fingers ran onto the strands. I secretly took a glance at him and he was serious. When his eyes slid into me, I immediately looked away and acted as if I wasn't affected by that stare.

"Ayan, ayos na." Inalis niya ang kamay niya sa buhok ko. Ako naman itong naguguluhan.

"Bakit mo ginawa 'yun?" Nagagawa ko namang tumingin sa kanya kaya lang hindi gano'n katagal.

"Your hair is a mess. I would feel bad if I just let you go with your hair messed up... You know, just to avoid feeling bad to yourself even more." When I heard that, a little smirk drew on my lips. Was that even a good thing?