It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 06

Chapter 06

There wasn't a day that I'm not bothered by doubt. It's tailing me every single day, which makes me overthink. Whenever I'm meeting someone in my life, I'm always questioning myself... Drowning to my own thoughts and answerless questions. I always sheltered myself to refrain them from coming in. It's kind of toxic, but I couldn't help it. It feels like it's in my nature already to doubt everyone I meet.

I know the root of that doubt is my traumas. It's kind of unfair that I will never be the same person again after a tragic event in the past... I missed my old self. Sometimes in my dreams, my teenage self always talks to me and she's disappointed with how things turned out. I want to bring back my old self, but I can't. She's gone... Dead, ten feet on the ground.

That's why I keep excluding myself because I'm afraid... I'm afraid that I will be vulnerable again because of a person who wants to be part of my world. I just don't want to be hurt again.

"Miss, good morning po," bati sa akin ni Aliyah na pumasok sa kwarto.

"Morning din. Gising na ba silang lahat?" Tanong ko.

"Yes, Miss. Nagkakape po sila du'n sa kusina. Tara na po," pag-aya niya at hindi na akong tumangging sumama. Lumabas ako ng kwarto kahit naka-nightgown ako. Dahil sa pagod ay mabilis akong nakatulog. Pasalamat na lang talaga ako na mahaba ang tulog ko dahil marami kaming gagawin ngayon.

When I came into the kitchen, they were all there, eating bread and sipping coffees. "Good morning, Sienna," Mrs. Sanchez greeted me as well as my staff.

"Good morning," pag-ulit ko ng bati habang nililibot ang aking paningin sa kusina. Nang mapansin na may kulang ay nagtama ang dalawang kilay ko.

"Asaan si Liam?" Nagkatinginan ang mga staff sa isa't isa at may kakaiba sa tingin nila na sinamahan pa ng ngisi. Ano na naman bang iniisip nila?

"Miss, nasa labas po si Sir," sagot sa akin ni Aliyah.

"Huh? Bakit siya nasa labas? Ang aga-aga pa." Naglakad ako patungo sa pinto, nagbabaka-sakaling makita siya. Ano na naman bang nasa isip ng lalaking 'yun? Ang aga-aga pa at saka nag-umagahan na ba siya?

"Hindi ko po alam, Miss. Basta sabi niya lalabas muna siya."

Because of curiosity, I stepped out of the house even though I'm still in my nightgown. With brows furrowed, my eyes keep wandering around the area, checking if he's somewhere nearby. When I failed to find him, I decided to just go back inside the house. Why am I even looking for that man? He's already old enough to take care of himself.

I was about to go back in the house, when suddenly I heard kids giggling and laughing. I couldn't help smiling because the kids were having fun. It's a core memory coming through and the fact that I love kids. Without hesitating, I walked to where those giggles came from. I was smiling ear to ear as I got close to it and when I already located where they were, joy filled me.

They are playing with a rattan ball and there's like a small fish net, tied into two poles to create a net. Looks like they are playing sepak takraw.