~ Together by a String ~ (Jiyoo)

~29~

I was scared that if I decided to go abroad with her, I would be in her way of achieving her future goals. She had everything planned out and I appeared in her life only to cause trouble. I already knew I was known as troublesome and there obviously was a reason for it. Knowing Yoohyeon, if she heard my thoughts I would've gotten smacked for discrediting myself so much.

I really did want to go with her, but what could I possibly do to be of help to her in there? Yes, I could cook for her and clean around, but other than that, I was pretty useless. My father didn't give me allowance anymore so I couldn't help her financially as well, so what could I possibly do to help-

"Jiu, you're sighing a lot.. What's wrong?"

"Sorry, did I wake you up?"

"I wanted to say good night, but I don't think you'll be sleeping any time soon. Talk to me baby, what's bothering you?"

"It's.. nothing, Hyeonie. Don't worry.."

She turned her head to look at me, our faces being less than an inch apart, and caressed my head and kissed my lips. I snuggled in the crook of her neck and that was my breaking point.. I let my silent tears fall down on her shoulder. She worriedly hugged me tight, leaving pecks on my neck and caressing my back with love and care.

"If you don't want to talk about it, I won't force you, just please don't keep it to yourself because it breaks my heart to see you like this.."

"I'm s-sorry Yoohyeon, I just.. I'm worried about some stuff."

"Hey, you don't have to tell me now, only when you're ready."

"No, I'm ready. I want you to know."

I quickly sat up on her thighs and took a deep breath to calm myself down. She sat up as well to match my gaze and held my waist, caressing my skin and patiently waiting for me. I sternly looked into her eyes and placed my hands around her neck, taking her aback from how my mood suddenly changed.

"Kim Yoohyeon, I have no fucking idea why you love me or why you want me to be by your side, but I need you to know that no matter what you do or where you go, I will always love and adore you because you're the only person that appreciated me for who I am and showed me what true happiness is."

She wasn't saying anything but stared at me with an understanding expression and carefully listen to what I had to say, even though I could tell she wanted to butt in.

"You asked me if I wanted to go to Norway with you and I honestly wanted to say yes the moment you asked me that, but I really don't want to be a burden to you because I am literally useless - I can't fucking speak English well nor know any Norwegian, I can't take anything seriously, I can't take care of myself properly.. G-God, I can't even speak my mind without getting too emotional and crying."

I wasn't holding back anymore and wanted Yoohyeon to know everything. I haven't shared so much in a long while and I really wanted to let it all out. She held my waist tighter and caressed it, looking up to suppress her own tears. I gulped before continuing.

"I love you so fucking much that I'll do anything for you - I'll kill for you, I'll die for you, I'll despise people for you, I'll risk everything for you, I'll literally do anything! J-Just please.. don't stop loving me, because I don't know what I'll do without you. We used to hate each other in the past, but now all feel when I see you is love.. You're my purpose in life Yoohyeon, if I don't have you, I-I really don't know what I'd do..."

I didn't realize that my eyes were closed the whole time I was saying that and the moment I opened them, I got surprised by Yoohyeon's eyes being swelled up with tears and a comforting smile slowly being formed on her lips. I felt apologetic that I made her tear up, but I had one last thing to tell her because I was more than sure about my final choice now that I saw the look in her eyes. They sparkled with nothing but certain love and adoration for me.

She really does love me a lot... And so do I.

"Yoohyeon, I don't see why you'd want me to go to Norway with you, but.. I don't think I'll be able to stay here if I'm not with you."

I noticed her eyes shine, filled with anticipation. I wrapped my arms around her neck and flashed a smile, so big that I saw her face lit up even before I told her my last words.

"I think I do want to go to Norway with you."

"A-Are you serious?"

"Would I ever lie to you, my love?"

She couldn't hold it in anymore and her happy tears finally escaped her eyes and I immediately pulled her in an embrace.

This.. the closeness we had was what kept me going. If it wasn't for her, I'd have been gone by now. She was my motive and my reason to breathe, my one and only.. my big girl Kim Yoohyeon.

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