Loving Ashlynn (#Wattys2016)

Chapter 23 - Impossible (Faith POV) Pt. 1

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Chapter 23 - Impossible (Faith Ashlynn POV)Pt. 1

"Samson and the rest of the Conrad's they're all so much different than me, they aren't struggling as I am, and they have each other-" I had said all this at my session, and I hadn't stopped speaking, clearing the disarray.

Nova had astonished me considerably. Because when I had finally had all of what was bothering me out she just shook her head. "You haven't been out long enough, nor have you interacted with the Conrads long enough. That said, let me tell you about teens your age Faith," she shook her head sadly. "All the insecurities you have, they have them as well - some are better than hiding it than others, but they all have something. One thing that bothers them, whatever it is, it can be that the extracurricular activity they are in - they feel like they aren't good enough."

"It can be academics."

 "It can be home problems, they can be angry with a parent, lost a parent or don't have parents at all."

"Your situation is exceedingly different, but everyone, even adults have fears, have trust issues, has moments where they doubt themselves so much that it's paralyzing." I guess I just had to take her word for it, not knowing enough to disagree but as of yet Nova hadn't lied to me.

I came home, and now I was holding a letter from Samson. Not sure what to expect, but knowing that this was probably a bit different because we had written notes for our project in class but it was usually just a few text messages on his part.

Dear Fatima,

I was very angry and frustrated that you've just started to ignore me especially when I'm not sure what I've done to make you stay away. I thought we were getting along great, but now I guess that isn't true after all. I keep replaying our outing and picking apart if maybe I had done something to upset you? Or maybe it was because of where I took you?

I'm not sure, but I thought I would tell you why I chose to take you to the Hot Springs, and the reasons is because it's a very special place to me. I haven't gone there in over two years; the last time was with my brother Silas.

You know... 'Twin Samson.'

I know everyone thinks that Miller or Taylor is my best friend, but the truth is, my best friend was my brother Silas. He was the exact opposite of me and everyone wanted to be around him. We were twins - as you know - and with him around it was much easier for me. I didn't need to make friends, because I had Silas, and I never realized how much of a large part of my life he was even though it really was quite obvious. When you weren't having fun at the places I brought you, for a moment, I just thought of Silas and the places he would enjoy and even though it was painful and emotionally hard to take you somewhere, I hadn't been able even so much as stop before.

I swallowed thickly forcing the knot in my throat down.