~ Together by a String ~ (Jiyoo)

~26~

"You know me a bit too well, it's scary."

"Hehe I know- Okay let's eat the ice cream before it melts and then we'll get talking."

She flopped on my bed and took out the ice cream that she mostly ate herself while I was just picking on it with my spoon and sighing a lot. She took the ice cream from me and put it on the night stand and crossed her arms and legs.

"Will you tell me why you're feeling like you got hit by a truck filled with asphalt or you want me to play the guess the reason game?"

"I don't know what to do anymore- like I wanted to study in Norway for as long as I can remember and I have a high chance to be accepted but I just.. I don't think I should."

"Are you sure you shouldn't or you feel like there's something stopping you?"

"The second one. I really, really want to go Bora, you know I do, but now... now that I have someone important in my life I can't just leave and be happy while my lover is alone."

"Does Minji know about this?"

"No.. I couldn't tell her. I'm sure she'd be hurt if she knows."

"I'm even more sure that she'd be more hurt if she sees you suddenly leaving the country without saying anything."

I sighed in anger because I knew she was right. I lied down on my bed and put a pillow on my head to try and stay calm. Bora sighed and lied down to pull me in a comforting hug.

"Yooh, you know that Minji loves you a lot and would support any of your choices so instead of hiding it and making it harder for yourself, tell her the truth. It's hard, but it's the right choice."

"I know Bora, but it's really not as easy as it sounds. What would you do if you were in my spot?"

"If I was you, my lover would be the first person to know what I really want. Not because it's absolutely mandatory for them to know but because they're the only person that would understand me best."

"But.. what if you're wrong?"

"Even if I'm wrong, it's not a bad thing to do. Let's say I want to study in Germany and Siyeon doesn't know that. You know how dramatic she is and would probably lose her mind. As for Minji, she literally breathes for you, Yooh. If you suddenly leave for Norway after telling her that you wouldn't study, she'd think you had a reason to not trust her enough and would beat herself for it."

I was close to crying because I just realized how much of an idiot I really was. I couldn't believe I doubted my girlfriend and thought she wouldn't accept what I was aiming for in life. Bora sat up and held my hand in hers, squeezing it to make me look up at her.

"Yoohyeon, Minji can never hate you for wanting a proper future. Everything has it's own risks that are inevitable, but trust me when I say that you will regret it if you don't tell her soon."

"Bora I'm really glad I know you."

"And I'm glad you listen to what I say, because I forget the things I've spoken most of the times."

We both laughed at her confession and laid in silence for a bit with just my sniffs being heard once in a few seconds.

"Are my pyjamas still here?"