45 Days With You
#I lied to them
To see is to believe, and when I see the results, doon na ako naniwala na totoo na talaga. . . na worth it iyong ginawa ko para ipakita sa kanila na gumagaling ako.
All my life, I've waited for the right. . . that this moment would let me know, that I'll be able to think positive. . . that I'll be able to see what's beautiful in me.
Beautiful world is welcoming me, that's my point now.
But in the other side, my mind still thinking kung paano ko na nagagawa itong mga kasinungalingang ito?
Para lang maging masaya sila? At para lang ba sa sarili ko kaligayahan? That's not accurate, I know!
Kasi noon inisip ko na. . . I'm not welcome. . . hindi ako nababagay dito. Hiniram lang ako. . . but now, all the negatives I've thought is flown away in just a small revelation I've seen.
Wala akong pagpalagayan nang loob sa mga gusto kung gawin sa ngayon. Embraced by your parents is one of my greatest empathy. One of my favorites. I love them so much and I'm very happy to this good news.
"You're now feel free to do whatever you wanted, Laspiranza." My Mommy.
Hearing that from them is heartwarming. Sinasakal ako ng kasiyahan sa puso ko, but I preferred to stay silent for that. 'Yung kasiyahan ko lang ang mahalaga sa kanila and seeing them like this is like a reels in my life.
"You are good girl, Laspiranza. You did well as what you've gonna fight for us. You fought well." My daddy said.
Hindi ko tuloy alam kung saan ako magsisimula. . . kung saan ako lulugar. They're too happy for them to realize that I'll be able to live my life freely and carefree. Masyado silang masaya sa akin. and that's what I wanted to feel them. Gusto ko na hindi sila malungkot sa akin. Gusto ko na masaya lang sila sa totoong takbo ng buhay ko.
. . .
"Doc?" I called him after I saw him in the hallway.
Wala pa ang mga magulang ko because they're busy for the trip they where.
Lumingon siya sa akin and gesture to follow him. Wala akong ginawa kundi ang sumunod.
"Yes, Ms. Mabinay?" he replied after I followed him to his office.
"I know that I'm sick," walang paligoy ligoy na sabi ko. "Alam ko na may taning na iyong buhay ko, doc. All your medication and experiment ay hindi epektibo."
"What do you mean by that?" tanong niya.
"It's just came out to my mind, Doc," sagot ko.
Medyo may pagaalinlangan sa puso ko sa gusto kung gawin sa sarili ko. But, I know that this would be useful. Kailangan ng nang tyiga.
He told me before na may isang gamot siyang kayang patagalin ako. And I mind it, kaya gusto ko na subukan iyon kung sakali Mang totoo.
"No! You shouldn't do that. . . about that dosage, Ms. Mabinay. It wouldn't be helpful to you but, you knew the consequences, right?" tanong niya na parang ayaw pa niyang ituloy iyon.
"I know doc, but I'm suffered I need to take the chance of living in a few more months with them," sagot ko sa kanya.
I am desperate now to live.
"That's not good on you, Laspiranza," mahina niyang sabi at tumingin sa relong kanina pa niya ginagalaw. "It cost expensive!" he added.
"I don't care! I have my money doc, so please interrogate with me for this," sagot ko sa kanya.
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45 Days With You ✓ (Completed)
Teen Fiction(SOON TO BE PUBLISHED UNDER KM and H Black Paper Forest Publishing House) Laspiranza Mabinay must adhere to the suggestions, therapy, and chemotherapy in order to recover from having leukemia and live. She gets used to her life being on an up-and-do...
