We Became The Mad Men

Addiction

At first, I thought I was drowning

The agonizingly slow downward spiral of my life was comparative to sinking

I would swear up and down I could feel the water filling my lungs

And the darkness taking hold of my eyes as I drifted off

But then I realized the wetness I felt was my skin dripping off my bones like candle wax

The water in my lungs was blood

And the darkness in front of my eyes was death

In the most merciful form

I began to see that I was not drowning

Nor was I some innocent soul - victimized

I was melting

Because I set myself on fire