Forever mine (Kohnnie)

❤️ Chapter 10 ❤️

Recaps: "And if not I'll die happy, and loved."

Kyle's POV
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Could I really take that risk? Image all the pain is gonna go through, I couldn't do that to him, could I?

Johnnie is asleep in my arms. He looks so peaceful, so calm. He wants me to turn him, I will but we need a date. I can't just do it tonight, I haven't feed I knew I wouldn't be able to stop if I did it tonight.

"Umm" he stirred.

"No, no , No!" He started crying.

"Shh, it's okay I'm here." I whispered, trying to calm him down.

"Help me!" He screamed and sprung up. He started crying and held his knees, this is what he goes through every night.

"J-johnnie what is it. Look at me." I grabbed his chin turning his head toward me.

"I-I-he-hes just" he started crying worse now. Whom ever "he" is must have done something horrible to my johnnie

"Who he?? Johnnie you need to calm down, and talk to me." I place my hand on both side of his face.

"Drake!" He coked out before crying again, Drake who? An ex boyfriend? Best friend?

"Johnnie, who's Drake?"

"He's my brother" he laughed a little.

"He's my older brother." How come I've never heard of johnnie having siblings?

"What happened to him?" I regret the moment it left my mouth.

He looked at me with so much pain and hurt in his eyes.

"After mom and dad died he uh he tried to kill himself." He was having trouble breathing.

"He hung himself out back of our house one day and I guess I came home to early, I am so glad I finished detention early. I couldn't find him anywhere!"

"He tried leaveing me just like dad did!" He screamed.

"I needed them and they left me, they always leave." He whispered.

"How come you never told me this before?" It hurts me to hear this about this family, that what he meant when he said, don't leave me too.

"Johnnie, they maybe gone, but they are watching over you. There still here, just on spirit." I kissed his cheek.

"He didn't die, I saved him. He blamed me and told me I should have left him there." He sniffed some.

"He told me he didn't want anything to do with me a couple years ago. To be honest I don't even know if he's still alive or if he succeeded suicide." He looked at me teary eyed.

Stupid Kyle, open you mouth again and tell another lie. "It's his lost, he's missing out on an amazing guys, that I wouldn't trade for the world."

He smiled, it was fake but he tried.

"Can we just try to sleep again" he laid his head on my chest drawing circles into my skin.

"Yeah, we can." I held him close, scared to let him go.

----morning------
When I woke up johnnie was gone and panic ran through me

"Johnnie!!" I yelled, where is he? What if something happened.

Nothing. No answer. I started thinking about him finding his brother

I didn't want him to be along, I climbed out of the bed and run all over looking for him. "Johnnie!!"