Read to me ~ Xingyun

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Tw// mention of violence, anxiety

Chongyun POV:

I woke up in a hospital bed... this was new... usally I'd start these things with the sentence 'I woke up with Xingqiu in my arms' but... not today...

I was confused, really confused, what was i doing here? What had happened?

I sat up and that's when the pain hit, a sharp stabbing pain in my head, it felt like there were a million swords stabbing my skull, I looked around to try and see if anyone was near but even moving my head hurt.

Soon a nurse came in and saw I was awake, she looked shocked but then explained everything, and as she did.. I remembered.

I remembered opening the door.

Seeing that face.

He punched me first.

Then he went upstairs.

I had to protect Xingqiu.

I tried to, I tried so hard.

I tried to knock the man out before he could hurt him.

It didnt work...

I remembered my last thoughts before passing out...

'Please gods.. dont let him hurt Xingqiu..'

That's all I could think about as the nurse was explaining, was He Ok? Was he safe? And as soon as they finished explaining I asked,

"Where is Xingqiu?"

"He is safe, he is with your auntie and she is looking after him."

"What about the man?"

"He is in custody right now, probably being questioned."

"I want to see Xingqiu." I demanded,

"I'm afraid you aren't fit for visitors, your head is still-"

"Please..." I interrupted, although the nurse had told me he was safe, I needed to see for myself, I needed him to be here.

"I'll see what I can do." The nurse spoke before leaving,

I lay back down allowing myself to relax a little in an attempt to ease the pain,

It didnt work very well,

The nurse had told me I was on painkillers but I couldn't have anymore until later, which sucked because I was in pain now, but I accepted it.

I found myself falling asleep again, being in hospital wasn't ad bad as I had imagined it would be, I didn't have any responsibility, all the nurses and doctors did everything for me, So I found myself able to fall asleep quite a bit easier, but of course I couldn't reast easy until I knew Xingqiu was safe.

After a few hours the nurse came in, followed by Shenhe and Xingqiu,

To my surprise, he was clinging onto her sleeve and hiding behind her like a nervous child,

I smiled regardless, I had missed him so much,

"Chongyun, how are you feeling?" Shenhe asked, moving closer, dragging Xingqiu with her,

"Uhm.. my head hurts.." I kind of laughed at my own statement but both of their faces remained concerned,

"Hi yun yun.." Xingqiu greeted, he was clearly nervous and I didn't know why, was he upset at me? Maybe he was scared of me..!

"Are you ok?!" I asked before I could even think, I had been so worried I needed to hear from him that he was ok,

"Why are you asking if I'm ok when your the one in a hospital bed.." his voice was shaky and his eyes were glued to the floor, that's when I realised why he was acting this way..

He felt guilty.

"I mean did he hurt you after I passed out.."

"No, don't worry.." he was still not looking at me,

"I'm going to go and get some drinks from the vending machine, you stay here with Chongyun." Shenhe said to Xingqiu, he nodded and took a seat next to the bed,

I couldn't see his face, he was looking at the floor,

"Xingqiu..?" I whispered, whispering hurt less for both my head and my heart,

"I'm... so sorry..." he cried quietly, I saw tears fall to the floor and I could see him visible shaking,

"It's not your fault, you have nothing to apoligise for!" I responded, trying to reach out to him,

He took my hand and stood up, now looking at me, I could see all of the pain on his face, his eyes were red and full of guilt and sorrow, his cheeks were stained with tears and his lips were scabbed probably from biting them,

"How can you say that." He whispered, "How can anyone be selfless enough to say that?! You have been hospitalised because you were protecting me, and still you find it in your heart to not be upset at me at all? How do you do that?!"

"Because Xingqiu, it's not your fault, if it was you who had smashed that vase around my head then maybe I would be mad but it wasn't! It was that stupid man! And I was protecting you because I love you! It was my choice to protect you, I could never blame you for what happened. Because it simply wasn't your fault." It hurt my head a little to say all of that since I unintentionally got louder but it was worth it to make him feel better,

"You should never have to protect me yun yun... you didn't deserve any of this.."

"I know but I want to protect you. That's what you're not understanding, I'm dont regret anything that happened because now that man is in police custody and you are safe and im going to be fine!"

"You truly are the kindest person ever Chongyun." Xingqui muttered, wiping his tears away,

He leaned down and gently kissed my lips, even though his lips were chapped and scabbed his kisses still felt softer than ever.

"I love you Xingqiu." It felt so refreshing to say that to him, I had missed him so much.

"I love you too yun yun.. more than anything."