Endless Love

Silence and Misbehavior

Miranda woke up in her new bedroom and sighed. She was being homeschooled while she healed and she didn't want to go to school because it would just remind her that Ben wouldn't be there and he had been her only friend.  She'd tried to call his phone number but it was the wrong person when she'd call. She felt numb and silenced so she hadn't been talking to anyone but her journal. She sat up and grabbed her crutches so that she could go to the bathroom. After she used the bathroom she stood in the mirror staring at the scars that were on her face. She imagined Ben in the bathroom with her telling her that no matter the scars on her face she was beautiful and that they would heal.

Miranda broke down crying; Elaina just happened to be walking pass when she heard Miranda crying so she opened the door. She helped Miranda back to her bed and held her as she cried trying her best to soothe her. When she was quiet Elaina looked down and saw Miranda just staring into space.

"I made breakfast and you haven't been eating lately. Maybe if you eat some breakfast then you can come with me and your aunties to shop for Christmas," Elaina suggested as Miranda buried her face her mom's chest to suppress the need to cry again.

Miranda stayed quiet as she got up, grabbed her crutches and walked to the kitchen to try and eat breakfast. She slowly sat down at the table across from her father who she'd not been speaking to and just made eye contact with him before looking away. Elaina made her plate,  kissed her forehead, "alright eat up so you will have some strength when we go out," Elaina said happy that she was willing to eat.

Miranda stared at the eggs, candied bacon, sausage and hash browns and immediately felt nauseous. The smell of the eggs and bacon was making her stomach turn violently which surprised her because it was her favorite.

Miranda quickly backed away from the table grabbing her crutches and tried to rush to the bathroom only able to make it to the bathroom sink. Elaina ran after Miranda to check on her and William went behind her.

"Mandy you okay?" Elaina asked as she got closer to the bathroom and saw Miranda on the floor with her head in the toilet and where she didn't make it in time.

"Awwww baby girl," Elaina cooed as she rubbed her back.

William came back and cleaned up the sink while Elaina comforted Miranda. "I'm sorry the smell of the eggs and bacon made me nauseous," Miranda explained in a whisper as Elaina and William looked at each other worried.

Miranda still wasn't feeling well after the morning so she stayed home. She sat in her room writing in her journal and writing notes that she wished she could give to Ben when William came in and sat at the end of her bed.

"Miranda when are you going to talk to me again?" William asked softly.

Miranda just looked up at her father then continued writing.

"We use to talk all the time before you met that boy," William said kinda harsh and Miranda shot him a harsh look back.

"I'm sorry but you were....are my baby girl and he came and then you weren't even thinking about me anymore," William expressed.

"I'm sorry for how I acted towards you and Ben, I know you loved him and he was your best friend....I kinda ruined that," William shared and Miranda just stared down at her journal as her eyes blurred with tears.

"Are you going to start back talking to your father Miranda?" William asked softly.

"I don't know if I'm ready yet," Miranda said wiping her tears.

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"BEN! Breakfast is ready," Janice yelled up the stairs to her son.

The sound of his mother yelling his name irritated him so badly he groaned. He'd never felt so angry with his parents, with Miranda's parents, with himself for not fighting harder to see her and with life. Ben got up to go downstairs and he took his book bag with him. Ben stopped at the kitchen door and just stared at his brother and father already eating. He sat down in front of the plate that his mom made for him. He didn't want to be there with them so he took the toast and made a sandwich out of the egg and bacon on his plate before tossing the plate in the sink and quickly leaving the house.