It Was Mariella Sienna

Chapter 03

"Sir, she's currently busy. Maybe you should call again next time," aniya.

"Is that so, then okay. Tell me when Sienna is not busy anymore." I squeezed my eyes shut when I heard the disappointment in Aly's voice. He was reaching me out, but here I am, blocking him with all the ways I could do because he's part of my resentment. The best thing to do is to stay away.

He's my light but became my darkness, and I can't blame him... I just can't.

Nung pinatay ni Aliyah ang phone ay pilit akong ngumiti sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at sinunod niya ang utos ko dahil hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin kayang kausapin siya. Pasalamat na lang ako ay hindi nag-krukrus ang landas namin.

"Sienna!" The woman's voice echoed in the four corners of my office. I was startled because of how loud it was. When I turned my head to where that voice came from, I rolled my eyes to see that it was Valerie. What is she even doing here?

"You can knock naman, hindi ba? Hindi 'yung sisigaw ka," sambit ko at nag-peace sign ito sa akin bago lumapit. "Bakit ka ba nandito?"

"I'm taking you with me on a double date," she announced, the reason why my forehead puckered.

"Double date? Ano na naman bang pumasok sa isipan mo at balak mo akong isama sa kalokohan mo?"

"Come on, Sienna, don't waste the chance! You're in your thirties already, so please come with me. I promise it will be worth it!" She pleaded with her hands clasped together. Valerie has many friends that she can invite, but why me?

"Thank you sa pag-papaalala na tumatanda na ako pero bakit ako? Wala akong oras sa ganyan," pagdadahilan ko pero binigyan niya ako ng mapang-asar na tingin.

"Wala ba talagang oras o ayaw mo lang talaga dahil hindi ka pa rin nakakapag-move on? Si Alytaptap pa rin ba?" Mapang-asar niyang tanong sa akin kaya kinurot ko ang tagiliran niya. Napadaing naman ito sa sakit at kaagad na hinimas ang parteng kung saan ko siya kinurot.

"Alam mo, mas mabuting itikom mo na lang 'yung bibig mo. Anong sinasabi mo?" Sumandal ulit ako sa lingkuranan at tumingin sa kawalan. Wala talagang preno ang bibig niya kahit kailan.

"'Yung lang naman ang naiisip kong dahilan kung bakit ayaw mo."

Nagpakawala ako nang malalim na hininga. "Val... Hindi naman kasi gano'n kadali 'yun. Hindi lang talaga ako interesado atsaka... Kaya ko na nang wala siya."

Is it really the truth? I didn't sound hesitant while saying that, but it felt so wrong that I was not even proud. For a year that I have been away from Aly, I already got used to it that it will never be him. I tried my best to stay away from him because until now... I still don't have the courage to face or talk to him.

"So, what's holding you back from loving again? Bakit hindi mo na sinubukan?" Kwestiyon ni Valerie kaya dumako sa kanya ang tingin ko. Madali lang sagutin ang tanong niya sa totoo lang.