"I don't wanna waste my time
Become another casualty of society
I'll never fall in line
Become another victim of your conformity
And back down"
-Fat Lip by Sum 41
The spring season got warmer and warmer, turning into the months of summer and your days got brighter and brighter.
Your new school semester was easier, and any free time you had you would spend with Mikasa, not only as girlfriends, but as closely bonded best friends. No interaction you had together contained that awkwardness that came with romantic relationships; you two were truly soulmates in every sense. Everything was perfect.
Almost.
Eren's attitude was getting worse; he was often angry and unsettled. He avoided you and Mikasa like the plague; always shouting and distancing himself from everyone. Especially Armin.
You weren't sure if it's because he was homophobic, but it didn't check out. He was super chill with you and Mikasa in the beginning, or if it was something deeper. He always made sure to stay away from Armin, and you could tell your best friend was upset. You and Mikasa were worried that Eren had found out about Armin's crush on him, and was shunning him for it. Eren would always make a wide berth around Armin in the halls, and wouldn't even look him in the eye, no matter how hard Armin would try to just talk to him.
You could see the hurt in Armin's face, followed by fear of what could happen if he was ever exposed. Mikasa would do her best to talk to Eren, while you comforted Armin.
One day, you and Amin had followed Mikasa home after school; Eren and Carla were out getting equipment for the soccer team that Eren wanted to join.
The three of you were seated in the living room couches, eating from a bowl of chips with your textbooks open. You were laughing and losing track of time, and enjoying some good time as friends. You don't notice the keys in the door until it opens and Eren barrels through with sport check bags in his hands.
The three of you turn your heads towards the doorway. Eren looks up and stops dead the moment he sees the three of you. You hear Carla talking as she steps inside behind Eren and looks up, seeing the four kids still in place.
"Is everything okay?" She says, noting the tension.
Just like that, Eren snaps out of his daze and sprints upstairs, making a racket.
"Eren!" Carla calls, and Mikasa shoots up and runs after him. Carla looks at you and Armin in concern.
"Uh, we should probably get going" you say, gathering up your books. Armin grabs his things in silence, head down.
"Okay..." Carla says hesitantly as she puts down her bags. "Be safe you two". Carla begins to make her way upstairs, and you and Armin head out the door.
About a block away, you turn to your friend. "Are you okay Armin?" You ask, noticing his head is still down and his blond hair is covering his face.
"Yeah don't worry about it" he says quietly. You place hand on his shoulder in comfort.
"Armin..." you start, it he shrugs your hand away and quickness his pace down towards his own house. You think to go after him, but you know he needs to be alone right now. You'll make sure to call him later.
You head home, mind full of thoughts and concerns about Armin, and Eren.
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The next morning, you made your way to where you and Mikasa usually meet up to walk to school. You stood rocking on your feet, waiting for your raven haired girlfriend. You had sent several messages on MySpace last night, wondering if she and Eren were okay.
You see a figure approaching from down the street. As they got closer, you let a smile Grace your face to greet your girlfriend. But it wasn't Mikasa.
It was Eren.
Shock was displayed on your face as Eren got closer. "Hey y/n" he said, looking shy and tired. "Mikasa went with mom today. I gotta talk to you." Now you were really confused.
You fall into step with Eren as you made your way to school.
"How did you figure yourself out? Like, your sexuality I mean" Eren said, breaking the silence. You realized what might be the reason for Eren's behaviour the last few months. You took a deep breath and answered honestly.
"It took a long time, and was super confusing and honestly, it scarred me. But if I try to pin it down, there really isn't a defining moment, just small situations that made me think I was different."
You tried your best to explain it, but you realized you fell a little flat. You look over to Eren, seeing his face in a frown and his eyes glossed over in thought.
"Are you okay Eren?" You ask quietly, looking at him. His frown deepens.
"I think..., I think I like boys. Like I like girls." His voice is quiet and hesitant, like he's afraid.
You place a hand on his shoulder in comfort. You and Eren have never been close, but you knew you wished you had someone there for you when you discovered yourself. He lets out a big breath and his shoulders drop like he's been holding a big weight.
"Thank you for telling me Eren. I'm proud of you man." You clap him on the back. He chuckles a little bit, easing some of the tension.
"Does Mikasa know?" You asked after a while.
Eren nods his head shortly, but without any of the tension and anxiety of before. "Yeah she does. Me and her kinda just talked stuff through last night" he says.
The two of you spend the rest of the walk talking and joking, and you felt like you were actually friends. You were proud of Eren for figuring himself out, or at least just starting to.
Later that school day, you saw Eren and Armin on the terf, talking. You were too far away to hear, but you saw Eren reach his hand out towards Armin, and the two shook hands like old friends.
Maybe, everything was perfect.
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Hey guys!! I got my second dose of the vaccine yesterday and MAN does my art hurt. Anyways, there are only a few chapters left of this fanfic! Thank you all so much for the support thus far!!!
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