"I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all"
- Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol
Sunday September 9 2008
The sounds of people shuffling around upstairs woke you up. It was late morning and you were taking longer than usual to truly wake up.
Once you had gotten a hold of yourself and your surroundings, you noticed you and Mikasa were no longer curled up together; obvious that you two had just drifted out of each other's embrace during the night. You didn't want to admit it but you were disappointed. Feeling the most comfort in her arms, you never wanted it to end; no matter how embarrassed you would get. You were almost tempted to reach over and pull her body back into yours, but you just couldn't bring yourself to do so. It would raise too many questions and possible fracture your close friendship.
You lay on your back in silence with your thoughts while waiting for Mikasa to wake up. You were still in shock by her confession last night; it both excited you and filled you with dread. You had a shot. But you could also lose everything. Sighing in frustration your turn to your side, only to be met by Mikasa's piercing grey eyes staring right at you.
Eyes widening in surprise, you jump back in shock. You could feel heat start to creep up your neck and cheeks. Her own eyes widened and her face started to turn red, herself backing up from you.
"I- I - sorry I couldn't tell if you were awake or sleeping with your eyes open" she says quickly, cheeks and ears bright red.
She looked so adorable all flustered like that you couldn't help let out a giggle.
That obviously released the tension in the air because Mikasa cracked a smile of her own and giggled a little bit. The red still evident in her face, but less awkward now. Smiling back at her, you crawl back up to sit against the pillows, Mikasa following suit, but sitting a few inches away from you.
"How'd you sleep?" You asked her, the last bits of tension bleeding away.
"I actually slept really well" she said. " I haven't slept that good in a long time" she added quietly.
You smile, hoping that you had something to do with it. You two relapsed into silence again; neither of you speaking for a few seconds.
"Girls breakfast is on the table!" Carla shouts from the top of the stairs. You and Mikasa both got up quickly, your hunger starting to act up. The two of you stumble up the stairs, pjs and all, and head into the kitchen.
Carla was kind enough to make some pancakes; both for you and Mikasa, but also for Eren since he returned from his friend's. Sitting down at the table across from Eren, you begin to load your plate and drown your pancakes in syrup.
"Hey Eren" you say, just to be polite.
"Hey y/n" he responds uninterested, not bothering to look up from his breakfast.
"Hey!" Mikasa says suddenly. "Be nice to y/n. She's out guest" she scolds Eren.
He looks up from his pancakes and glares at Mikasa. Slowly he turns your way.
"Good morning y/n" he says again, and immediately diverts his attention back to his food. You didn't mind all that much; you and Eren weren't really friends. You only spoke to him because he was Mikasa's brother.
The three of you finishing your breakfast in silence, you and Mikasa head back downstairs to change and freshen up. Brushing your teeth together, Mikasa brings down an iPod doc and you two jam to MCR while dancing with toothbrushes in your mouths. When you finished brushing your teeth, you two cleaned up the mess you made in the basement. You folded all the sheets and deflated the air mattress all while dancing around. Once the basement was looking proper, you two hauled the blankets and pillows back into Mikasa's bedroom. Throwing the blankets on her bed, you flopped down on top of the mattress, Mikasa throwing herself down beside you. You two laughed over nothing and just reveled in the joy surrounding you both. After a bit of laughing and joking around with each other, you two get your final things together and you prepare to head home.
"I can walk you home if you'd like" Mikasa offers as you zip your backpack closed. You didn't want to burden her with having to escort you, but you didn't want to be out of her presence just yet.
"Yeah sure!" You say, grabbing your shoes and slipping them on. Mikasa tells her mom she's walking you home and puts her own shoes on. With one last thank you and goodbye to Carla, you grabbed your skateboard and the two of you headed out.
It was a nice day, albeit a little chilly for being so early in September. You two walked in silence; enjoying the scenery and each other's presences. Before you knew it, you came upon your house, and you forced down the disappointment of having to separate from Mikasa, even though you would see her tomorrow. (Yeah, you may be a bit clingy). Walking up your front steps, you stop before the door and turn to face Mikasa fully.
"Thank you so much for letting me stay over. I had a lot of fun. As usual." You say, a smile on your face. Mikasa smiles back at you and pulls you into a hug.
"I'm glad you could come over. Let's definitely do it again soon" she says before burying her face in your neck.
The two of you just stood there in each other's arms, and you didn't know if it was the autumn afternoon sunshine, or the crisp breeze from the west, but you knew, that something was different. Not bad, but different. Things were gonna change.
You took refuge in Mikasa's embrace, dropping the strange thoughts that has weaselled into your brain. Eventually, she let you go, and turned around to head home. With a wave and a blushy smile, she heads down the sidewalk and rounds the corner.
With a sigh, you turn back around an unlock your door and head straight to your bedroom. Your (guardian/s) give you a brief hello and you close your door and drop your stuff on the floor. Leaning against the door of your bedroom, you stand there for a minute, just letting your body and your mind catch up and figure out you feelings for Mikasa. These past 24 hours had changed a lot, and you didn't know what to do.
Letting out one final sigh, you jump into your bed, pop in your favourite CD, and finish the homework for tomorrow.
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A/N: Heyy y'all, a bit of a shorter chapter this time; I realized I have not actually properly planned this fic out, so I should probably get a ground idea out. I'm thinking I'm going to update this fic once a week; maybe Friday night (maybe?) and update my other oneshot fic whenever I feel like it.
Anyways I hope you all are doing well and thank you for reading!
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