"If I could find you now
Things would get better
We could leave this town
And run forever"
- Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
Exams passed by in a flurry of stress and confusion. Doing your best to cram before the exam or staying up extra late to try to get a passing grade kept your mind off Mikasa.
Mostly.
Thoughts of her would appear late at night; after your brain was fried and you decided to lie down, the creeping tendrils of despair would make their way between the cracks of crammed information, and make you fall asleep much later than intending with dried tear stains on your cheeks.
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It was the day of your history exam; one that you and Mikasa would be taking together. You decided today was the day you were going to corner the dark haired girl and try your absolute best to make up.
Getting out of your (guardian's) car, you shuffle through the snow into the school building. You had a basic outfit on; some black ripped skinny jeans, a green GIR hoodie, some striped finger gloves, and the necklace Mikasa gave you tucked to your chest. With your books in hand, you head up the stairs and park yourself outside the classroom door with a few other students, and whip out your books to do some last minute cramming.
About a half hour later, the dirt bell rings, and students who were wandering the school before hand were crowding towards the door, waiting for the teacher. You spy Mikasa hanging back by the lockers, and you take this chance to try an approach her.
As the two of you lock eyes from a few feet away, Mikasa turns to head into the classroom that was being unlocked by your history teacher Mr. Smith. As nonchalantly as you can, you grab her forearm to make her stop, and before she can protest you lean into side.
"I need to talk to you after this. Please Mikasa" you begged in a whisper as you let her arm go and walked into the class.
For the next two hours, you did your best for stay focused on your exam, trying to keep anxieties about Mikasa out of your head. Your leg bounced and you flicked your pencil around as you answered questions about the Renaissance and world trade history. After the 65 minute mark, Mr Smith announced that those who were done were allowed to leave. A few students got up, papers in hand and headed to the front. Barely five minutes later, Mikasa stood from her seat, gathered her things, and headed out.
Your heart sank. You hoped so hard that she would allow you to talk to her, but you knew you wouldn't be able to catch up with her now.
The rest of your exam passed by slowly, your effort declining by the minute, and you let all your answers be sloppy. When the time was up, you and the rest of the students gathered your things, handed your papers to the prof, and headed out the door; some going home to cram for their last exam, or some enjoying an extra day off before the new semester.
You walk through the doorway, spirits crushed and feeling super depressed, when a splotch of black caught you from the corner of your eye. You looked up to see Mikasa leaning against the lockers, watching the students leave the classroom. Your eyes meet and you make large strides towards where she's standing, and when you reach her, she turns around and starts walking, glancing back to make sure you are following.
You can see she looks unkept; her hair is pretty tangled and she has her arms crossed tightly like she's folding into herself. You hoped she was okay.
Mikasa lead you to one of the janitors closets that you knew Levi wouldn't mind if you two used.
(Hopefully)
She steps into the dimly lit room and you follow her, closing the door behind you. The two of you stand across from each other in silence for a few moments, and you take a deep breath before breaking the peace.
"Mikasa"
It was enough to send both of you over the edge; the tension and the emotion built up between you two snapped. Mikasa's dark eyes filled with tears and she launched herself at you, burying her face into your neck and sobbing. You felt your own eyes water as you tried to say everything you wanted to as soon as possible, in case she changed her mind.
"Annie came onto me and kissed me because she told me she liked me but I said I was with you and I pushed her away Mikasa I would never hurt you like that I love you so much I don't want to lose you" you said in one big sob as you tightened your arms around the dark haired girl.
She sniffled into your shoulder. "I'm so so sorry y/n I knew you wouldn't hurt me like that and I was so rotten to ignore your calls or your messages I just didn't know what to do" she said into your chest. "When I saw Annie kiss you it felt like everything in the universe burst to ash and the demons had made their way here to punish me."
The both of you clung together and sobbed, apologizing and making up; vowing to never fight again and to always hear the other out no matter what.
A while later, once the two of you had calmed down you lean away from one another for a moment before slowly making your back in for a kiss, before the door to the storage closet slammed open and the two of you jump away from each other.
In the doorway stood Janitor Levi with a very pissed expression on his face.
"What are you two doing in here?" He asked, tone harsh and unforgiving.
You and Mikasa stutter trying to find an acceptable excuse as to why you were hidden away in the Janitors closet, before Levi interrupts you both.
"Tch whatever just get out of here before I report you."
You didn't need to be told twice as you and Mikasa scurry out of the closet as fast as you can, erupting in a fit of giggles once you turned the corner and were gone from sight.
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The next day you were over at Mikasa's house first thing; making pancakes together and exchanging as many small sweet kisses to make up for the time lost. Carla was out running errands and Eren was taking his last exam so the two of you were temporarily alone.
You and Mikasa were dancing around as you flipped pancakes and made a stack worthy of Gordon Ramsey's attention. You were playing around and you snakes your arms around Mikada's waist and danced with her, her bringing her hands up to your shoulders.
You two giggled and danced before being interrupted by the front door opening.
In walked Eren, nose red from the cold as he shook is jacket off onto the floor.
"Hey Eren!" Mikasa calls out, but the moment his eyes land on the two of you holding onto each other, he freezes in his spot, eyes wide.
"Is everything okay? How was your exam?" Mikasa tried again, detangling herself from you as she takes a few steps towards her brother. Before she can continue, he bolts up to his room. Mikasa runs after him in concern, calling his name to see if he's okay.
"JUST FUCK OFF MIKASA" a yell coming from the second floor is heard right before the loud slamming of a door. You jog over to the stairs only to be met with a pale concerned Mikasa.
You take her into your arms and ask if she's okay, while the both of you theorize what could be going on with Eren.
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A/N: I once again forgot it was Friday and that I have to post so sorry if this is a little late. How have you all been?
For the past few weeks I've had some really severe anxiety over this one particular situation, but a couple days ago it was resolved in the best possible way so I am doing better.
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