Deadly Rhymes and Laughing Times VOL I

Driving From the Backseat

We met under the weirdest circumstances
And us being face to face defied all the chances
You always made me laugh until I couldn't breathe
And made my life bearable with all the pain underneath

With every smile we shared, a weight was lifted off my chest
It didn't matter if we met for a second, it was still the best
You might never know how much you mean to me
But I hope these words preserve the feeling as best as can be

I will always be mesmerized by the sound of your laugh
The most beautiful melody that I couldn't capture in a photograph
Instead I'll keep it in my heart, where I'll re-visit it forever
I'll keep it for the rest of eternity that we won't get to be together

You were a dream that kept me safe through the coldness of the night
The beautiful music that kept me sane through the depression of daylight
You were everything to me, but most importantly my friend
And like all good things in my life, the best always comes to an end

I have to take a step back, and watch you fall in love elsewhere
Watch you walk away, while I stand with too much pain to bear
I never knew this emptiness would start to hurt this bad
And my heart ached and cried for something I never even had

I have to let go, and just accept that it'll never be the same
It'll never go back to the way it was as I start the bitter endgame
I have to stand idle, while the best part of me is ripped away
And I'm forced to stand here and pretend that everything is okay

If only I knew I would be this lost, I would've looked at you a little longer
I would've taken from your positivity so it'll make me a little stronger
I would've memorized your laugh and played it on shuffle and on repeat
But now that reality set in, it's like I'm the driver sitting in the backseat

I feel so lost and confused, and everything hurts so bad
The pain I feel is worse than any poison I ever had
All I'm feeling in my heart now, is nothing but empty space
And with each day that passes, I'm slowly forgetting the image of your face

I tried to hold on, but it's hard when you keep slipping away
It's hard to stay strong when you were the one who always met me halfway
With this emptiness I feel, I'll still always fight for you
I'll keep your memory close, you know I'll always do

But for now, I have to learn to breathe in the pain
To get used to the burning feeling like acid rain
I will never stop loving you, but I have to let you go
Because even in my brokenness, your love is all I'll ever know