My feelings for you

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Amelia's pov:
-Link I don't feel ready for marriage, it's a bid step and I need to feel sure about that
-Amelia where did you stay that last two nights?
-What?
-As you heard me, where did you stay the last two nights because I asked Mer and she said you weren't at home
-I had a discussion with Meredith last night and left
-And the other night?
-I was at my friend's house!
-I don't know if I can trust you - he said angry, what the fuck!!!
- What the hell Link? What do you mean?!- I yelled, I don't care if others could hear me I was so mad!
-Are you using again?- he asked
- Seriously?! Are you kidding me?! You think I relapsed just because we're separated now?
-Well weeks ago, you admitted you wanted to use again!
-Yes! I trusted you all my crap and now you use that against me?!
- No Amelia, I care about you! And I'm worried about our child!
-What a good way to show you care about me! Yeah I did a lot of mistakes but  now I have a son and I want what's best for him so I gonna stay sober for him!- I yelled
-Oh so you only care about him! What about me! Don't you think I'm important too?!
-That's not what I meant and you know it! Can't you just understand that I'm not ready for marriage? I love you but I just can't! - I said almost crying
-I do! But when are you doing to be ready? How long I have to wait, days? Weeks? Months? I don't wanna waist more time!!
-Well if you think that waiting for someone you love is a waist of time then we shouldn't be together anymore!
-Oh so now you're running away! Like you always do!
-Yes! I'm leaving because that's the best for me! - I said leaving the room and running to the bathroom. Suddenly someone came and I tried to hide but the person took me by the hand
-Hey love, everything okay?- it was Zona, so I turned to face her
-No, I tried to talk to him and he asked me if I started using again...-I said sobbing
-Come here- she said pulling me closer for a hug
-I broke up with him, like this time is official, is he doesn't trust me then I don't  have nothing to do with him
-It's okay Amy, I'm here for you...- she said giving a kiss on the forehead- why don't we go home and cuddle while we watch a movie?
-Yeah, I like the idea- I said smiling a little, I feel safe with her
-It's okay if I leave? I have surgery
-Yeah, I'll be fine- I said smiling and pulling away, she left and then I headed to the attendings room where I found Meredith
-Hey Amelia, can we talk please?- Mer said
-Yeah, what do you want?
-I'm sorry, the things I said... I was wrong, can you forgive me please?- I was mad but remembered what Zona told me and maybe she's right, Mer jus cares about me
-Sure... Everything is fine
-So you're going home?
-No... I'm sorry I already have plans
-But you have Scout tonight - she asked confused
-Yes, I know but as I said I have plans, don't worry I'm fine
-Okay, if you need something just let me know
-Yeah.. thanks Mer