Misery Needs Company

I Just Fucking Miss You

I can't put these feelings into words lately- it's true.

I know it sounds crazy coming from me,

'cause turning pain into poetry is what I do.

But I can't even figure out why I'm still affected by the things we can't undo.

I just fucking miss you.

But I wish I didn't have to.

I miss the sound of my laughter.

And the way I felt like nothing could ever be more beautiful

then the love that we never had to run after.

'Cause it was right there.

When did you start to get scared?

If only you would've told me.

I could've saved us both years of pain and constant tears.

Now you can't even hold me.

And I hate you for the way that I still love you after all those years.

I miss the old me.

I miss the old you.

And I know that things can't just go back to how they used to be.

But the thought of living life like this forever- without you,

is just too painful for me.

I know that you don't wanna be friends anymore.

And I understand why you feel that way-

but baby, If I can't have you in my life at all,

I'm not sure if i'll ever be okay.

'Cause honestly I never wanted this.

I never thought we'd ever end

and I never thought we'd do everything we did.

But what's done is done and I'm afraid that we can't fix this.

Baby, what if we can't fix it?

I never anticipated having to live without it.

Now I'm scared and I'm empty inside

and I'm looking for a pain killer in every smile that says Hi.

But nothing will ever feel like you.

And I'm scared because I know that's true.

You hurt me in ways that I never wanted to admit.

But I was just terrified of reality

because I knew that you were never sorry for anything you ever did.

And now I'm taking on the consequences again

because you won't accept the blame for any of it.

And I know you said that we can no longer be friends.

But what the fuck is the point of living

if you're not here to get me through it.

Turning pain into poetry is what I do.

But these days my pain's been in hiding

and I'm fucking up so badly.

and I just fucking miss you.

I really just fucking miss you.