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I lied on his bed waiting for him, and as much as I wanted to yell and cry and kill someone, my body was too far behind; it felt like I was lost in a never-ending pit.
Severus, my boyfriend, is still unaware. I realize he's been cheating, but he still acts as if nothing happened.
I hate it I hate him I hate that I fell in love with him
I was brought out my thoughts when I hear the door open.
I grunted and sat up straight on his bed as he entered the room where I had been waiting for him.
"Hey darling" he beamed and I just lightly smiled I don't know how long until I can keep this act up
"What's wrong love" Severus asked sitting next to me putting a strand of hair behind my ear
I sniffled and turned to him tears threatening to come out my eyes
Me and Severus both realize I'd die before letting someone see me cry and think I'm weak, but this time was different.
"I mean I get I'm not good enough but Lily Evans really" I sighed tears falling out of my eyes I moved away from him of the bed standing up and he looked confused
"Who told you that you weren't good enough?""he exclaimed
"Nobody told me that they made me feel that way" I told him and he got up and brought himself towards me
"Who made you feel that way dear" he asked again and I chuckled "You, you made me feel this way" I blurted out and coughed letting all my tears get out
As I said Severus started running his hands through his hair and he sighed
"What's gotten into you y/n I haven't made you feel anything" Snape replied and I laughed
"YEAH BEACUSE YOUR TOO BUSY FUCKING LILY EVANS!" I shouted at his face.
'What the fuck how did she know' Severus thought he didn't reply which made it worse
"Im just going to go now" I demanded and I went to walk out
Severus quickly get on his senses and followed y/n he spun her back around and she stared in disbelief
"I told you to go Severus were over you can have Lily" I groaned and he moved closer to me.
"Severus stay the fuck away from me" I shouted pushing him back
"YOU STILL HAVENT SAID ANYTHING" I screamed at him pushing him away
"WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO SAY" he screamed back
" I WANT YOU TO FUCKING ADMIT IT" I saw him gulped and he moved closer
"ADMIT WHAT!" he aked and I pushed him back and atared at him in disbelief.
"THAT YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP AND THAT YOU DONT LOVE ME AND YOU GOT BORED OF ME AND LILY IS THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE FUCKING ADMIT IT SEV" I sighed stopping for a second
"Just admit it please" I begged and he walked closer to me engulfing me into a hug
"I can't admit what's not true" he whispered his voice breaking
It took me a second to realise what was going on so I pushed him away
"No" I sniffed "you don't get to cry you don't get to be angry"
I stepped back "I trusted you I loved you and all I want and need is for you to admit it" I pleaded
"It's not true none of it is I don't like Lily it just happened and I do care about you and our relationship and I know you do to because if you didn't you would have left by now" he murmured with tears coming out of his eyes
"Please y/n I - I love you" he spoke sounding sorry so I went to give him a hug and a kiss but pulled away
"No you are nothing to me anymore" I broke down and he knelt down in front of me and hugged me legs
"Please y/n what would I do without these legs" he sobbed "and there's arms" he added moving up my body "and your heart" he choked out his voice was shaky
"No your a whole diffrent person to me now" I broke down even more
"Y/n I love you!" He shouted
"WE ARE DONE SNAPE" I spat and he looked as if somebody just stabbed him in the heart
I hadn't called him Snape in over a year
"NO DONT Y/N I FUCKING LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART!" He shouted again but this time smashing a potion vile that was right next to mine and his picture.
"JUST BECAUSE YOU KEEP SAYING THEM WORDS DOESN'T MEAN ITS GOING TO GO AWAY SEVERUS " I screamed back at him and he walked back
"YOU HAD SEX WITH ANOTHER GIRL" I burst into tears again, except this time it was more like a whisper shout.
"So much for our shitty relationship" I whispered again tears falling down my face as I picked up the picture of us in and threw it on the flow smashing it to pieces
He looked at me with his mouth open and his eyes teary and his face had tear streams down it
I turned around and walked towards the door and had my hand on the doorknob
"So much for 'always and forever' huh" he choked out.
"We're over Snape go fuck Lily " I muttered and as I shut the door I heard smashing and screaming and it broke my heart even more I just wanted to turn around and run into the room and kiss him but I couldn't because he broke my heart.
A few years later 3rd POV
Y/n L/n married Lucius Malfoy as they found love in each other. They were both lonely at that time and Lucius also found out that Narcissa cheated on him.
It was fine, he reasoned, because he had Lily with him.
But then things began to fall apart when he called Lily a 'mudblood' in an argument.
After that Lily Evans married James Potter.
When you left Severus' life, he was devastated.
He was completely unaware that he needed you to survive, that is, until you decided to leave.
His life was went down like a roller coaster as he watched you get your life together as it should.
Severus knew he'd never be happy again. Not when you were married to somebody else, while he was there, hating himself for losing you and blaming himself on cheating on you.
