Clato : Till forever falls apart

Chapter 28 - the end

I wake abruptly after another nightmare of Thresh killing me. But this time the man from the party stands by and watched as well ,next to all of the tributes I had murdered. I fall back sleep but it gives me no relief.

Nimit barges the door shouting about another busy day is ahead. I smile. I didn't know something as simple a that could make me grin foolishly. I throw off the covers and realise I'm still wearing the dress and makeup from yesterday. My knife shoes abandoned on the floor

"Don't tell me you slept in that and your makeup. That's terrible terrible terrible for your skin" Nimit sighs

She pushes me into the bathroom and tells me to wash it off for the prep team and then she hands me a T-shirt and shorts from the wardrobe. She gathers the dress and accessories and hangs them neatly brushing out the creases with her hands looking pleased with herself

"That's better" she claps as I emerge fresh faced and showerd. "You know your skin won't last forever!" She says

Nimit pulls me into the main room where Enobaria is already sitting.Brutus and Cato yet again are no where to be seen. Nimit sits a seat away from Enobaria patting the seat beside her. I see I front of that seat is a bowl of porridge. My mouth waters looking at the bowl. I move over to the table instinctively. I sit down

"I don't deserve this, you saw the bodies of the other tributes. They were emancipated. While we where Gready and kept the food to ourselves" it comes out my mouth before I can't stop it

I've never really manged to put into words my reasoning behind the need for this sort of control or punishment on myself. it just another excuse I made up in my head but I'm not sure.

"You were playing a game, you did what you needed to survive. The games over now" Enobaria says

"I thought you would know better than all people that the games never over." I say bluntly

"Yes, but it was worth a shot. I noticed you like berries though" she drops a handful into the porridge mixing it in.

I roll my eyes and smile. I can't believe she took the time to notice. Something so small.

"Oh well I can't not eat it now." I say sarcastically

I look into the bowl. Knowing deep down the sooner I finish it the sooner I get home, each swallow is like a rock sliding down my throat. I don't even realise there are hot tears on my face. Why do I feel like I failed myself. It makes no sense. I wipe them away quickly and get up.

"Where's Cato and Brutus?" I ask trying to turn the attention of me

"They're already dressed for today. There meeting fans" Enobaria says

"Yes yes" adds Nimit "we thought better him than you. You see he has a bit more umm pizzazz than you" she trails off.

"It doesn't offend me. I know his the people pleaser. I could tell people liked him more as soon as you dressed him in gold" I say

The prep team come in and start working on me yet again. It's the new prep team again. I guess Desmond decided to permanently swap with Cinna then. I guess that was his little victory in Cato's stylist moving up the stylist ranks. Cinna entres and ushers them away.

He dresses me. It's a silver again but the kneckline is like a turtle kneck and he tucks Finch's knecklace into it. And it's not a dress it's a full body suit. It's replicating the amour we got in our bag at the feast. But It has a sliver holographic cape draped from the shoulders reaching just above the floor.

"It's more modest. I heard what happend last night. I'm sorry" says cinna

I nod looking in my reflection. My hair is half pulled up. The other half tumbles down to my waist. The part that's done up has the now iconic spheres in it again.