Me and my werewolf ON HOLD

New Part 2: Roman

I was beat, I could barely stand. Everything had been hectic this past two days, With the alpha being killed and all. Me being next in line I had 3 goals to accomplish.

First I had to find the threat. A creature that could kill my father  won't be easy to find because Killing an alpha isn't easy, many people and other wolves spend their life trying and get nowhere. So the person who killed my father had to be strong, and patient, Alpha's rarely were alone and considering only my father was killed that person wited for my father to be isolated.

Second I had to calm my pack down. Normally through human and werewolf history switches between Monarchs created anarchy and caos, that's the problem I was facing now, no one understood what was going on I was only half alpha, really because of my third problem.

Cass.

My harmless sweet angel. My mate. I would've became alpha after I mated with her and we had our first pup, but my father was now dead and I was next in line leaving me without a true mate and heir which had most of my older pack members confused. Alphas required a heir and werewolves were only fertile with their mates, so my future as alpha relied on Cass.

If I mated with her now there wouldn't be anarchy for long but that left me with three more problems. One, she was my angel and I knew she wasn't ready for a commitment and if I moved to fast I'd scare her and she'd run. Second, I wasn't sure I wanted to cause her the pain my father had caused my mother when he died. Finally I couldn't cut myself out of her life without causeing both of us an insain amount of crippling pain. 

My mother. She wouldn't get out  of bed and Chloe had to force her to eat I knew that this death was tearing my family apart, but there wasn't anything I could do, and knowing that made my heart ache.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

Me and my family had always been close because we shared a secret of the ancient werewolves and me and my brothers and sisters had always shared many intrests because of our high stanima.

I had sworn to protect my pack. my family and if that meant sucking up my pain that's what I'd do. I'd dedicated my life to my pack.

I pulled my phone out  of my pocket to check if anyone had dug anything up about the attack on my dad.

I had most of the pack doing patrol to make sure the rest of my pack remaind safe and secure. I sent my closest three comrades to search details of my dads death. Julian, Mathew, and Tony.

Nada.

Whoever killed my father was good. Which meant I had to be better.

To be honest I wasn't sure I could do this, but as soon as the thought made it to my brain I pushed it away.

I can do this.

I thought of Cass, Chloe, my mother, my brothers, my pack and finally my father. I'd do this for them I looked at the clock and shook my head no wonder I was dead tired it was 2:22am I looked up at the stars and wished before I headed home.

please let me have the strength to do this.

I headed toward home in wolf form.

Home I marveled the word for a second. Nothing about home felt the same without my father and his strong presence walking the halls.

My wolf had a sleek build and it was pitch black except for a white little cresent moon plced on the back of my neck.

I almost felt the hatred for this  place that I had felt the first time I'd set foot in this worthless forest As I ran through it jumping over rocks and fallen trees. I instantly regretted the words. If I hadn't moved here I wouldn't have met Cass.

Cass.

I hadn't picked her up today because all I could feel was guilt for having been her mate if she'd mated with someone less high on the rank she wouldn't be in as much danger.

I growled. I didn't like having thoughts were Cass wasn't mine.

I'd arrived at home and once I came into view I could see a pissed Chloe standing on the deck. Chloe wasn't the type who held a frown well she gave off vibes that made you want to make her smile. Because of resent events I could see why she would be sad and pissed, but I turned out to be wrong when she started screaming at me.

"How could you!!"

"You call yourself a mate!!"

"Julian or Matt wouldn't avoid us a whole day and not talk to us!! how could you?!"

I was dumbfounded what was she talking abo-

Cass.

My sluggish brain finally clued in she was yelling at me because I hadn't called Cass. I shifted to defend myself from Chloe the caotic.

How did she know?

" I-"

"Don't even try to deny it I just got off the phone with Cassie and she was really upset that you ignored her phone calls all day."

I hurt Cass? My mate.

I instantly shifted and ran off deeper and deeper into the woods, leaving a screaming Chloe behind but not before  I registered her next line.

"You better get there quick she was really upset and hurt. She thinks you hate her."

I ran faster.

I finally stopped a little house with only one corner room light on. I didn't mind that it was cold and that it was raining. I stood there waiting to see her and smiled when I caught a glimps of her walking passed the window.

I knew that this type of devotion won't ever go away but I still had no answer to wether or not to put through the danger of me, who I was, what I was? and the danger I offered.

Would she love me enough not to leave me.

Worry filled me as doubts swirled around in my mind. I almost felt like crying at the thought of her being disgusted with me, avoiding me.But the thought of her accepting me and then getting hurt or dying made me feel numb as if I were already dead.

Would I love her enough to set her free now?

I didn't know

I was to tired to process this problem or any of my other problems so I closed my eyes and quickly fell asleep.

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I changed the name cause I got bored and was playing around also I edited this chapter                     I just read it over and it is so cliche Again  it's making me mad I don't want cliche yeah sorry it's so short but I couldn't think of anything so I just updated. Again SORRY IT'S SO SHORT. and sorry it doesn't really tell you much.

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