Listening To My Heart - Poetry/Lyrics

Poem 54 {Depression}

With each weak breath I take, I can feel the sharp pierce stab to my heart.

It's crying out with so much pain and it's telling me cry!

To scream!

To find a shoulder!

Although all I do is sit in denial, content with pure lies.

I'm lying through my teeth at every detail,

I'm lying to myself.

I'm lying about details that don't need to be hidden,

Things that can lay honest and at peace.

Though I feel the need to cover myself up,

Cause I feel exposed and naked,

So I dig that little more deeper and deeper.

Until I'm sure I can't feel.

And I know I can't because every pain stabbing occurrenc slides by,

And no reaction, I feel it stack up as my pile of pain and rage add,

Though I leave it.

It's ticking away, slowly gaining on me.

And I'm not sure what I am to do to solve all these emotions,

I'm not even sure I know the riddles of my problems.

Where did it start?

I can't re-trace my steps and I can't keep this smile up,

It's wavering.

All I want to do is hand this darkness to someone else,

Leave it to them, and cuddle up into someone's warmth and tower.

Though I can't, it's up to me.

I'm in it alone and I have to heave through it all,

If I want to see the light of hope.

I have to stop avoiding my demons.

But who said I can't have a helpful smile to guide me through?

So please just be there,

And guide me through.

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