Listening To My Heart - Poetry/Lyrics

Poem 33 {Breaking Away}

I used to curl up tight in a ball every night,

And cry about how you and everyone else had left me abandoned.

I used to waste my time on poetry,

Confessing how much I loved and ached for you.

I used to let myself bathe in my miseries.

But now I can't stop smiling,

Cause I'm realising I'm put on this earth not to pleasure you.

No I'm here so I can smile,

I'm here so I can cry,

I'm here so I can grow.

I'm growing you can't deny it.

Cause this smile, it's not fake.

These tears, there not over you.

And my growth?

I'm growing away from you.

I wasted so many hours contemplating on how I was to breathe.

It's simple; inhale, exhale.

I realised I don't need you to breathe.

I'm capable of doing it all myself and I don't need you.

Cause if you were my prince you wouldn't be you.

You wouldn't have left me to breakdown into a ghost.

And most importantly,

You wouldn't of stopped saying I love you.

Cause this girl?

She is capable of reaching her dreams and she is,

Every single one of them without you.

You.

Cause I can now bellow at the top of my lungs,

Singing of love and believing,

Cause I believe that no matter what I'll make it through

No matter what it'll be me

And no matter what it won't involve you.

Cause my wings have spread and I'm taking a leap to start new.

To be able to fall in love again,

But this time I'll be me and I'll control my life.

So when I fly right past your window,

Don't think I'm throwing rocks at your window.

All I'm doing is showing, proving,

To you that I may be in the dark and alone

But anything is better than being a part of you.

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