Owned by Him

Prologue

Sabi nila maswerte raw ang isang tao kapag may isang tao na laging andiyan para sa kaniya.

Sabi din nila kapag may taong ganun huwag mo ng pakawalan pa.

Sabi din nila bagay katulad niya lamang, naka jackpot na ako.

They always have a comments about him. Good comments.

I can't blame them, maybe because they saw it when he's there for me. They just saw the 'good side' of him.

He was there when I needed someone to hold on.

He was there when I feel like the world spit all of the negativity to me.

He was there when I am lost on a vacation.

He was there to spend his whole day to be with me in a New year's eve.

He was always there for me and he never failed to be with me.

But despite of all of that, he was also there when someone slap me and he don't do anything about it.

He's also there when I receive a accusations about me being a mistress that I don't even know.

He's also there to watch me suffer from all of the things that woman do to me.

He's always there, but not for all of the good times. At iyon ang hindi nila nakita, ang panahong magdusa ako ng dahil din sa kaniya.

Naroon din siya nung panahong kailangan na kailangan ko ng isang tao na magpapayo sakin, at magiging comfort zone ko sana. Pero hindi para sakin, sa isang babae na kung tawagin ng lahat ay 'legal wife'.

Kitang-kita ko kung paano niya ito alagaan, kausapin, hawakan, titigan. There's passion in everything he do for that woman.

At iyon ang kumain sa konsensya ko, na bakit ako di ko manlang naranasan sa kaniya iyong mga bagay na iyon?

Why he can't look at me like he looks at that woman?

He just also watch me beg for him just to talk to me and answer what happened to us and walk away like I'm nothing to him.

Iyon ang naging dahilan kung bakit napag isipan ko na siguro nga di naman niya ako minahal, he just just me.

And make me his mistress for a year. Maybe he just wanted sex from me and nothing more, nothing less.

There was always him but I won't let that happen again. I'm done from being a trash that he used.

I just wanted to get away from him, magpunta sa isang lugar kung saan hindi ako nakikilala bilang isang kabit, kirida, pokpok at mang aagaw.

Gusto kong mamuhay ng normal na walang mang aaway sakin bigla, manglalait at kung ano-ano pa.

Sa sobrang sakit ng ipinaramdam niya sa akin, ni hindi ko na nga nakilala ang sarili ko eh. Sa sobrang sakit gusto ko na lamang lumayo sa kaniya, at sa lahat ng taong nakapalibot sa kanya.

Because he don't deserve someone like me. He used me. He made me have a tittle that I don't even want to have.

He is such a jerk. And I don't want to be part of his life ever again.