Yooo, so someone asked me out...I said yes. Aye. In my defense....I feel horrible. The boy is in deep love with me...and I don't even see him like that. I'm also giving him the benefit of the doubt because I wanna try and move on. I am over Jaden. I am just tryna figure out how to start randomly dating again. If ykyk. Im sorry if that seems like a dick move but im just tryna cope. Also my father wants my ex...yes Jaden...to dance with me at my Sweet 16 or my Quince. I know horrifying. I swear to god if he messes up Imma kms. If he can't dance imma shoot myself. Anyways so I saw my mum and bby sister...shes the cutest thing EVER!!!!! I swear if my children aint like her i dont want them. lmaooo. Fuck my father. He just gave me dirty looks i swear if looks could kill i would be dead.
BACK TO WHEN THE DUDE ASKED ME OUT!!!
So as i was saying im sorta tryna figure if i like him like dat or not. Yeah i know im fucked up for that but im trying my best to show as much love for him. I will try my best to make him happy cause in a way he does make me smile...a real smile...the last person who made me smile was sadly Jaden. ANYWAYS ENOUGH WIT DUMB BOYZ!!!! I finally GOT MY BURGER!!!! I havent had a burger in months. Ngl wish i had 3 burgers i only ate like 1 and 2 cookies. I ate good. I have been starving myself because i thought i was too fat. I am like super insercure abt my body...i hate everything abt it. but im not afraid for anyone to see it...if that makes any sense. Also...I fucked up my hair again. I dyed it blue then pink then Black....I DONT KNOW WHATS FUCKING WRONG WITH ME.
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