Finding Myself

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"Come on Connor you have got to get up" Isabelle yells for the fifth time.

I groan and sit up grabbing my phone off my nightstand, I unlock it and scroll through twitter. Eventually I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom looking the mirror I sigh, one year ago today I lost the love of my life. I sigh again before turning on the shower and hopping in, after I'm done I wrap a towel around my waist and go to my closet. Once I'm done getting dressed I walk into the kitchen to see Isabelle doing something on her phone while eating a bowl of cereal.

"We're hanging out with the boys today, we're going to Santa Monica pier" She says not looking up from her phone

"Ok cool, its been awhile since we've all hung out. I miss them and feel bad about shutting them out plus I'd rather not sit at home all day, especially not today" I sigh

"It's been a year Connor, I understand it's hard but you know she wouldn't want you to be sad" she explains looking me in the eye

"I know I'm trying to move on"

"Ok they said to meet them there around 10AM and its 9:15 now so we best be going" she says changing the subject

I simply nod and follow her grabbing my keys on the way out.

After pulling up at the pier we look around to see if the other guys are here yet, they are. We spot them standing in a circle next to Ricky's orange KIA.

"Hey guys" I wave

"CONNOR" they scream in unison tackling me into a group hug while Isabelle just stands there awkwardly playing on her phone

Once they pull away they turn to Isabelle. "Hey?" she says but it sounds more like a question. Shes met the boys before but its been awhile.

"Hey Isabelle" Jc says hugging her

"Awe you remembered my name" She smiles hugging back

"well yeah" he laughs

After everyone greets each other we start walking around. Once noon rolls around Kian starts complaining about being hungry. " How about we go to Pier Burger?" I ask/state

A course of "Sures" and "yeahs" are exchanged throughout the group. "okay lets go then" I say

We order our food and start a conversation while we wait.

"So how have you been guys?" I ask

"Busy" they all say

"Anything exciting coming up?" Isabelle asks

"Well I'm working on my Ep" Ricky says

"Me and Jc are working on a secret project" Kian smiles

"I'm going to be in the new Magcon" Sam nods

"And I have my radio show every Friday" Trevor finishes

"That's awesome guys" I grin

"But we think we're going to end O2L soon we've just been so busy with our own stuff, we haven't been giving our fans the best videos and we don't want to put out content that we didn't try 100% on" Jc says sadly

"Well whatever you guys decided to do I'm sure the fans will support you" Isabelle says

"I hope so" Sam sighs before the waiter gives us our food.

*after lunch*

"Do you guys want to go to the aquarium?" Isabelle asked

"Sure" we say in unison

"Creepy" she laughs "let's go!" She screams grabbing my hand and dragging me in the direction of the aquarium leaving the guys to trail behind

After paying the $41.67 for all of us we walk in going to the Dorothy Green room first where they have the newest fish. We then walk to the Pacific Seahorse exhibit. We eventually end at the Pollution Corner and Sea Jelly exhibit.