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Chapter Four

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Chapter IV

Bella's POV

No way in hell. Did I just see them? Is this really happening? Never once since my turn had I doubted my eye sight; but here we are.

As I drove away from the school, I could only think of one place to go. My house. I couldn't call it home. No, home was somewhere else, lost somewhere in time along the way. But it was a house, and I was renting it. So it was my house.

At top speed, I got there in five minutes. I parked my car, and the thing I wanted to do most was go for a run. But I was scared that they'd track me down, and I'd be forced to talk.
But I really wanted to run. It was the most freeing thing I could do. Besides, it was second nature. My mind would be free to think. And I needed to think.

So, to make sure they won't be able to track my scent, I ran circles around my house. It was quite a large house, and the forest that wrapped around it was beautiful, so it wasn't that bad.

I didn't know how to approach the subject. What to consider first. The thoughts in my head spun around, and I felt like I was in those machines in Vegas. You know, those booths that have money around flying in them. It felt like I was in one of those– trying to catch one thing but keep being interrupted by another.

I decided to clear my head and start from scratch. Here's what I knew for sure:
1. The Cullens were here, and by the looks of it, they were going to stay here.
2. They didn't want me. They seemed shocked to see me, even disappointed. Which was no surprise.
3. I missed them.
4. I was furious at them. How dare they? They left me! And then they just show up? And what do I get? The whole school staring at me.
5. Edward.

I knew nothing about the fifth subject, but I felt like I should include it. That was just an entire can of worms that I wasn't ready to open yet. I didn't know if I ever would be.

I couldn't help but wonder if he'd found someone else. Someone he thought was more interesting. He once said they had extended family in Denali. Wonder if it was one of them.
It was sick and twisted but I felt happy for him. Me? I was miserable. But him? I hoped the best for him.

Maybe he even got married like he said his siblings did. Maybe the reason they were so shocked to see me was because they had all moved on, and felt uncomfortable.

In my mind, I imagined how their life might have looked like ever since they left. I saw sunshine and rainbows. I couldn't help but hope that was true. But then again, I was furious at them.

I couldn't blame them for leaving me. I never did. But I still felt slightly betrayed. They'd made so many promises. Every one of them. And all of them were not kept. Broken. And I was left behind, cut by the shatters of their broken promises.

The next time I glanced at my watch, it was almost time for school. I debated wether I should go, then noticed that the sun was out. I silently thanked her for sparing me having to make a choice.

I checked the weather, and saw that the sun would be out until Thursday. It was now Monday. I had three days to think.

I wanted no distractions. So I went on a quick hunt. About twenty miles from my house, I found two medium sized deer. I drained them quickly then ran back. I hoped with all my heart that they wouldn't be able to find me.

I knew Alice couldn't see me, which was a life saver. I couldn't deal with her right now. I think I resented her the most. She was close to me just as much as Edward was, but she never said goodbye. The last time I saw her was at my birthday party. She never even came back to school.