No Regrets [Jack Barakat]

No, I can not forgive you yet

[title is a lyric from Foo Fighters' song 'I Should Have Known']

Jack's POV

I haven't seen her since such a long time. It's just a picture but it's still like I met her. I saw her new lip piercing on the picture, she had now already a lip ring. She mostly tweeted about her band and that they're gonna make their first music video. They also uploaded a new episode of NR-TV, which I've watched like 50 times since they uploaded it. It's actually just the band at the set of the music video, but Val seemed pretty happy. I hope she's happy and doesn't just act like she is.

Valentine's POV

I'm trying not to think about Jack. I don't wanna cry again over a boy. You know, back then when I was together with Leon I was so depressed when we broke up. Maybe also because of the reason we broke up, he told me that he doesn't love me and that he thinks I'm nothing special. Jack "just" bet with Alex that he can fuck me. But I can't forgive him yet. I need some time. "Val, you're ready?" Ian yelled from downstairs. "Yeah, I'm coming" I yelled back and graped my bag. I ran down the stairs and then to the car. Ian was already waiting in it. As soon as I was sitting on the seat, he drove out the driveway. We picked up the other guys from their houses and then drove to the place where the interview was. Everyone except of Bob were sitting in the car and singing along to 'Sick Sad Little World' by Incubus. That's my favourite song of their album 'A Crow Left Off The Murder...' and Incubus is one of my favourite bands. We of course also sang the drums and the guitars. When we arrived at the place, we walked to the reception and told them who we are. They told us in which room we had to go. We took the elevator for going up to the 4th floor and searched the room. Everyone greeted us friendly and we sat on the couch. The interviewer was a blond woman with pretty big boobs. She's totally Jack's type...Stop thinking about Jack, dammit! I cleaned my thoughts and tried to focus on the interview. The cameraman counted down from 3 and then the big boobed woman began to talk. "Hello everybody and welcome! I'm here with a new band called No Regrets! Hello guys" she said and then looked to us. We waved and said 'hello'. "So, you just have tour behind you. And I heard that you're making your first music video?" she asked. "Uh, yeah that's right. It was pretty awesome on tour and the guys from All Time Low are pretty cool to tour with and I mean, you can see now where this brought us" Ian told. Clearly he had to say that ATL is nice, because if he would have said 'they're nice but like to bet about who can lay my sister' then it would have pretty much rumors and stuff. "Oh, that sounds really nice. How is the video going?" she asked the next question. "It's going pretty well. We actually just had one day of filming yet, but it's really fun" I said and the others agreed. The whole interview was like this, the typical questions and also some weird fan questions.

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Dammit, from all those persons from earth HE has to be here? Why were I actually opening the door? "Hi, can we talk?" he asked and looked a bit sad. Even though I didn't want him, I let him in my apartment. He looked a bit happier when we stepped in my apartment. I think he's happy because he finally had the chance to really speak to me. "So, talk" I said emotionless. "I just want to explain everything to you. I'm gonna begin from the very first start...when I drank my first drink. You know, I drank so much that night, like I always do. And I honestly don't remember a thing from that night. I just know that I made this bet with Alex and that...well you know. And I'm so fucking sorry about that. I shouldn't have done that. I'm such an asshole, I feel so horrible because of that. You didn't deserve something like that. I know that you'll maybe not forgive me that, but I just want that you know the truth" he explained and still looked pretty sad. I first just stood there with crossed arms. "I can't forgive you" I finally said still emotionless. His face turned hopeless. "Yet" I finished. Now his face lit up a bit and I could see that there was a bit hope in his eyes. "You're such an asshole for what you've done to me and I really hate you for that. And you're right, I didn't deserve something like this. I had enough trouble in my life so I don't need something like this. But I can see that you're really sorry for that. But I'm not ready to pick our friendship up. I need some time" I told. With no emotion. I don't wanna make him too much hope. He smiled a bit and nodded. Then he left.