listen to before i realize
"What?"
"Mae, what happened to you?" he repeats sadly.
"A lot." i respond. "And then some."
"Uh here." Jahmont hands Jahseh the rag and jahseh places it on my head slowly.
"Thank you." i whisper and close my eyes.
~•~
Mae, wake up. Lucas shakes me awake.
isn't there someone else you can torture? I say with my eyes still closed.
Nah, it's not as fun. He chuckles.
Ha ha. I say dryly.
i miss you, Mae. He says seriously.
Lucas—
don't lucas me. i really do.
this isn't good for my mental health. never was.
i know, Mae. i'm sorry.
heard that before.
He sighs.
that's what i thought, lucas. please, i'm trying to move on.
by hurting people. like i hurt you.
oh please. you hurt me way fucking more than i hurt them stupid girls.
you swung at me earlier.
yeah, so?
why?
i hate you
i deserve that.
you deserve worse.
yeah....
can you please leave now?
who's this guy? laying next to you?
Jahmont's friend.
he's getting a lil cozy, Mae. i don't like it.
i don't like you, go away.
so you like him?
i didn't say that.
But you're thinking it. Now actually... wake up. He snaps his fingers and i sit up, wiping the sweat off of my forehead. Lucas isn't here now, of course. I feel a hand on my back and i tense up.
"Mae, it's me. Jah. It's okay..... It's okay." he says softly.
"I- need to go outside." i mumble quietly. Tears well up in my eyes.
"What?" he asks groggily.
"I need fresh air." i say a little louder, but not loud enough.
"Huh?" he says again and sits up.
"I need fresh air!" i exclaim and tears drip down my cheeks.
"Okay, I'll go with you." He crawled down the ladder. I crawled down after him. He grabbed my hand and I tensed slightly. We walked outside. I put my head in my hands.
He likes you. Lucas says from in front of me.
please stop.
i can't. i'm in your head. only you can get rid of me.
you'd think after murdering you, that's what i was doing.
it's all in your head.
i know.
then get rid of me.
"Mae." Jahseh says. "Talk to me."
"I'm in my own head. But it's not me. It's so hard to explain." I cry.
"Start from the beginning." He says, squeezing my hand gently.
"Seh, I don't wanna. I'm sorry." i admit.
"It's okay, I understand." He says.
"Can you sing me a song? To take my mind off of things?" i ask.
"Yeah of course." he says. i wrap my arms around him. "Spend time, waitin for you
You know i'd die before you
Realized, long before you
You know I tried with you, know it
Real love, know i saw you
Said you can't hide beneath your
Pain, I seen it with my eyes"
"Seh, that's so pretty. Who wrote that?" i look up at him.
"I did." he says.
"It's beautiful." i smile softly.
"Let's go inside." he says.
"I—"
"Let's just go inside." he cuts me off.
"Fine. Jerk." i stand up and he grabs my arm gently. He stands up too and kisses me softly on the cheek. I gasp and rip my arm away and run inside.
"Mae—" he says quietly after me.
I hurry into jahmont's room and climb up the ladder.
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Fanfiction"Alright. You can be mad." Lucas stands up too. "But, what your not gonna do to tell me how I need to talk to my girlfriend. You sure don't have room to talk Jahseh." And with that last sentence, Jah punched Lucas in the face. "Oh shit." Ski stands...
