Grinding Spike [ 5 to 13 ] -- DISCONTINUED

[47] Him

Before I continue the story, let's flash back a bit
It won't take so long, I promise
Don't you guys want to know what is in Puen's mind?

So, let's appreciate him to let us know about what he thought about everything

Then, here we go . . . .

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Puen POV

"Goodnight, Than"

I leave him. Maybe he will feel dumbfounded because what I just did to him. At first, I didn't have intention to kiss him but it turned, I couldn't help myself to do it. That is the only way to shut this chatty boy mouth. That is the only thing that can seal his mouth from asking too many questions.

I leave him there. It is past midnight now but I can't ask him to stay. Not now, when I can't stop my heart for beating so fast. If I let him in, how can I make my heart calm down? It will make me can't sleep all night long. Just not inviting him in and did kiss him, my heart is being like this. I bet it will take times before I can calm down and go to sleep. This is the first time I am being like this and he is the one who caused me being like this.

Him.

I never thought he will cause me so much trouble, make my life ups and down and sometime spins like a roller coaster.

I touch my heart. Still beating so fast.

"Feel like you are going to die because of him, Puen" I speak to myself.

At first, I only found him as annoying brat who is having big mouth with no skill. I have no interest on him at all. He didn't get any respects from me but he gain hate. Maybe not hate. Let's call it anger. Yes, he made me angry. Every time I saw him, he always made me mad.

First, because he mentioned about he didn't get accepted by St. Sebastian volley team. He seemed like he was mocking at us, our team. Like we are the side option when he didn't made to his first option. Like hell.

Then, he got same number as my previous partner, Singha. And top of that, he is the setter. Same as Singha potition when he left us to move to St. Sebastian.

Quarrel. That is the only thing that always happened between us. But it suddenly changed when I overheard his conversation with his father and saw him cried. Since then, step by step I have been changed toward him. I never played favoritism but I taken care of him in a hard way. Always made him suffer from hard training. It is because I wanted him to improve his skill and he did. He proved to me he could do what I challenged him. And without I realized, I got closer to him and he become a part of my life.

He made me forget the feeling that I had for Singha. Tell the truth, I had a crush on him and when he moved to St. Sebastian to pursue his dream, I felt betrayed. He was the first person who understands me but yet he did the same thing as my parent did to me. He left me when I trusted him so much. He was more than a best friend for me. He is more than that. That is why I never can forgive him.

Than.

He suddenly replaced him in my heart but I always deny it. I tried to refuse my feeling for him because I didn't want to get hurt. Because I still wanted Singha to comeback but it never happened. Yes, sometime he showed up but he acted so close to Than and a part of me didn't like the way he got close to him.

Jealous? I thought so. I was so jealous of him. I didn't want him to steal him from me. Not like when he stole my heart then broke it to pieces. Now, when my heart got healed, I didn't want he broke it again. I didn't want him steal the reason why my heart is healed.