Obsession

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•Vanna•

Living with Jiyong:

I have to get used to the fact that it's not just me and Cheonsa anymore.

He has to get used to the fact that he doesn't live alone anymore.

We sleep in the same bed and oddly there was no weirdness or doubt, it felt right. It feels good knowing there's someone next to me. I love sleeping and feeling the heat from his body next to mine.

No we aren't in a "relationship" our relationship is being mom and dad and taking care of our daughter. There hasn't been talk about us being together, well Jiyong likes to call me little pet names like baby, babe or sweetheart. I've never said to stop but that's as far as it goes.

I think at times maybe I want more, Jiyong hasn't pushed anything on me and I really appreciate that but lately I've been feeling so clingy and attached to him after I realized all he's done for me and how sweet he is. I try to hide how much I want to cling to him but slowly it's coming out.

7AM

I hear Jiyong shuffling around the room quietly, the little noise waking me from my sleep. Slowly I sit up seeing him grab his wallet and phone.

"Where are you going Jiyong?"

"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you"

God he's so sweet, "it's okay, I don't mind"

"I'm going to the studio to help Seungri with a song"

"Oh ok, I guess we'll see you later then" I smile a little but really I feel kind of upset because I don't want him to leave.

Jiyong walks to the bed and sits down in front of me. He stares at my face intently.

Our eyes meet and hold contact for a little until I shy away from his intense stare.

"Why are you staring at me"

"Mmm for many reasons"

"And those reasons are...?"

"Well firstly because you're beautiful and I can't believe I can wake up to you by my side every morning and sleep next you every night. Secondly I'm in love with you. I want to stare at you all the time"

My face heats up from his words, that never effected me before but seem to now. I swear living with this man is doing something to me.

"And thirdly I'm wondering what's wrong"

Jiyong sees the confusion on my face so he continues, "You look upset"

Should I lie? Many excuses come to mind that I can tell him so he won't think anything is wrong but none I choose to tell.

"I just don't want you to go" looking down I tell him the truth quietly. I see his hand come into my view as he gently holds mine.

"Well that's a first"

I laugh a little looking up at him, "how fucked up are we"

"Extremely fucked up" Jiyong laughs a bit.

"I don't think many people can understand what we've been through" and it's true we've been through a lot and the fact that we are together right now must mean something. I feel something for him that I don't want to push away.

I lean forward and wrap my arms around his neck pushing my fingers into his hair at the back of his head. There's a look of shock on Jiyong's face but he slowly wraps his arms around my lower back.

"I'm sorry for what I've done to you"

"What are you sorry for?" He looks confused.

"I'm sorry that I left. When we first met I liked you but I didn't think much about it because I worked for you. The night you took my virginity I was nervous I didn't think you were interested in me. I enjoyed it but in the morning I had this weird feeling like I did something wrong, I didn't feel like myself I don't know why but that's why I left like the way I did. I didn't think about you and your feelings. You already were going through so much and I just added to it. I know what you did was wrong but I punished you way to much for it. I was just mad and hurt but I know you are too and I'm so sorry"

My body feels light and relaxed. I feel like the permanent grey cloud over my head is gone and the weight on my shoulders disappeared.

I feel his arms tighten and he pulls me closer to him.

"I don't know what to say... You don't have to be sorry"

His eyes hold so many emotions, I can tell he is shocked at what I said. My eyes search over his whole face taking in every detail. It seems like in a minute every memory I've had with him runs through my head. I'm done being hurt and angry, I want to be happy now.

•G Dragon•

The look on her face is unreadable. Searching my brain for things I can say but coming up blank.

I see her slowly moving her face closer to mine and I freeze. My eyes travel from hers to her lips. She stops just before her lips touch mine and I hold my breath. She lifts her eyes and looks into mine and I instantly know I'm in love with her.

Make the move, come into me Vanna. I stay in place hoping she comes to me but I don't have to wait any longer when I feel her soft lips touch mine. The feeling of her lips makes my whole body feel like it's shaking. I haven't felt her kiss in so long and I didn't think I would ever feel it again. The last time we had contact like this I only kissed her skin but this is different. This makes my body feel like it's on fire, it makes my heart pound so fast I feel like I'm high.

Our lips mold together like they were made for each other.

•Vanna•

A mixture of butterflies and tingles bursts in my chest. The feeling of his lips on mine feels so good I can't get enough. Pushing his head more into me our kiss intensifies, our tongues not yet touching but his mouth pulls and sucks on my lower lip.

Jiyong grabs my hips pulling me to straddle his lap creating no space between us as my chest rests on his. I feel the warmth and wetness from his tongue on my lips, I immediately meet his tongue with mine. The sounds of kissing and heavy breathing fills the room.

I love it too much I can't get enough, Jiyong pulls away a little bit and I follow not letting his lips off mine. There's no wondering hands but more an embrace both him and I hugging each other as if we were one. The lightheaded feeling becoming too much I pull away reluctantly.
Jiyong lays his forehead on mine his eyes closed as he catches his breath. He opens his eyes after a moment and smiles.

"That was amazing" he lets out a breathy laugh.

"Yeah it was" there's a silence for a bit both of us just relaxing in the feeling.

"So I guess I'll see you later" I start to climb of his lap.

"What! Oh hell no, you kiss me like that and expect me to leave, fuck that you're all mine baby" Jiyong grabs me before I'm fully off and lightly pushes me onto the bed and rolling on top of me. I can't help the laugh that excepts me for the playful feeling inside of me. Jiyong laughs with me while pushing his face into my neck leaving little peck all over.

We continue to wrestle and give playful kisses in bed and I get this overwhelming feeling of happiness. I feel as though things are finally falling into place and I can't wait to start a new relationship with Jiyong.

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Should I continue.......?😏🤔😆