Sweet Rejection

Chap 10: Closure

Jho

I called her out. She didn't look back. She fall out of love and it was so unfair.

I didn't know how long I cried for her. I couldn't count anymore the number of times I beg for her. Everyday, I went to her house until she's gotten tired and didn't come back home. I called her phone, she didn't answer. I called her again, she couldn't be reached. I texted her, I got no response. All because I was so desperate of her love.

I didn't listen to my friends and kept on chasing her. Until she hit me with words, "You love me, right? Then if you do, you have to let me go, Jho." that's when I realized I was out of the line already. I cried again till no more tears fell.

I went to Batanes for 2 weeks to think and fix myself. During those times, I realized that the love I've forced her to accept wasn't healthy anymore. I've become selfish and focused on my pain forgetting she's in pain too. So I come back for my career. Not just my career but because my family was there. I kind of accepted the fact that Bea and I were over. I still hope but that hope wasn't 100%. I think too it's time for me to move on.

For the 1st month in my residency, it was hard especially I could see her in the same place. I thought to back out but I want to move on. I still cried but I have lived without her. I still cried when I heard she was rejected by Kianna but I have lived of resistance to comfort her. I still cried when she looked at Kianna like how she looked at me the same but I have lived until I felt numb.

"Jho, okay ka lang?" concern na tanong ni Jia sa'kin.

Napukaw ako sa pagrereminisce ko.
Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang tumulo sa mata ko.

"Nakakaiyak kasi itong pinanuod natin, eh." pagdedepensa ko.

"Hala, bes. May sintik ka na ata sa utak. Wonder Woman 'to, sa'n banda yong nakakaiyak?" pilosopa niyang sagot.

Tanga mo Jho. Dapat nag-isip ka ng ibang dahilan eh.

"Eh, sa naiyak ako! Paki mo. Wag mo nga akong kausapin, kita mo tong nanunuod ako!"

Napapailing na lang si Jia na kumakain ng popcorn.

Nagdinner kami after naming manuod ng movie. Sobrang daldal ni Jia tungkol sa pinanuod namin, tango lang ako ng tango dahil hindi naman talaga totally ako nanuod.

Nakatingin lang ako sa kanilang dalawa ni Miguel. Bagay na bagay sila kahit na I'm still wondering kung bakit nagustuhan sya ni Miguel.

"Nakangiting mag-isa ka dyan? You look creepy, Jho!" pagbibiro niya.

"FYI. Kasama ko kayo kaya hindi ako mag-isa. Miguel, ginayuma ka ni Jia noh? Hindi ko pa din gets ba't mahal mo yan."

Sinamaan lang ako ng tingin ni Jia.

"Baka Jho. Hindi ko din alam kung bakit nagustuhan ko tong girlpren ko eh." pagsasakay ni Miguel sa biro ko.

Nagtawanan lang kami samantalang matalim kaming tiningnan ni Jia.

Palabas na kami sa restaurant nang may tumawag sa pangalan ko.

"Jho! Bunso!" si tito Elmer.

Sila lang naman ang tumatawag sa'kin ng ganun eh.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Bea. Pero umiwas agad ako at tumingin kay tita.

"Hi, tita/tito." bati ko at nagbeso sa kanila maliban na lang kay Bea.

Nag-hi din sila Jia at Miguel. Inintroduce ko na din sila kina tito at tita.

"Nice seeing you here, bunso! Namiss na kita! Hindi mo na ako dinalaw sa bahay.."