All my sanity is gone (COMPLETED)

At My Worst

Sophia's POV
I woke up in a dimly lit room and saw four tall figures. Slender, Trendor, Splendor, and Offender. I got up and I held my stomach in pain. "What happened." I said looking around and I was in the Slender Mansion.

I thought I burned it.

My dad, Kyle, Puppeteer!!! They weren't with me.

I had a panic and an anxiety attack.

I started breathing heavily and I held my chest. "Where's my dad? Where's Kyle? Where's Puppeteer?" I said as I started sweating.

Then my anxiety and panic attack stopped. I wiped the sweat off my face using my sleeve and I walked out. Everyone stared at me and my wounds. I took out my shard sword and tried walking out the mansion. "Bye bitches." I said.

Slender dragged me back in here.

I started singing Goddamn Liar by Get Scared

"COME OOOOOOOON
You'll never take me!!!
You'll never take me alive!!!!
Cause god knows you've tried
I once was blind but now I see the light!!!
Maybe I should cut my wrists
You know I've never been FUCKED like this
You ripped my heart apart
You know who you aaaaaaaaaaaare!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!!
I don't wanna care!!!!
Like I wanna care!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!!!!
I don't wanna care!!!
Like I wanna caaaaaaaaare!!!!!!
I know you HATE me
I can see through your eyes
You had the guts to take me by surprise
Maybe I should call it quits
I know you like to see me like this!!
I'm not inside to fight the fight you know I can't win!!!!!!!!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
I don't wanna care!!!!
Like I wanna care!!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
I don't wanna care!!!
Like I wanna caaaaaaare!!!!
(AFTER ALL THIS REGRET!!!!!)
You had me at my best with what little I had left!!!!!
Now I'm finding out the bottoms not as bad as it gets!!!!
I may be wounded
You think I'm already deeeeaaaaaad!!!
And now I realize that sorrow only bring out my beeeeeeeeeeeeesssst!!!!
(Maybe I should cut my wrists, you know I've never been FUCKED like this)
Goddamn You're a goddamn liar you're a goddamn liar!!!
I don't wanna care like I wanna care!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!
I don't wanna care like I wanna care!!
Goddamn liar!!!
Goddamn liar!!!
Goddamn liar!!!
You're a goddamn liar!!!!"

I started shaking.

And that caused an earthquake.

I started to cry.

That caused a storm.

I screamed.

That caused the ground to split.

Mirrors appeared everywhere.

They all looked at their reflections in fear.

They though the were ugly monsters.

They are ugly monsters.

I looked at my reflection and saw myself.

I ran out and saw my dad, Puppeteer, and Kyle.

"Sophia what have you become?" My dad asked. "....." I didn't reply. "You've become a terrible monster." Puppeteer said.

"You may have a pretty face, but you have an ugly heart." Kyle said.

I pulled out a mirror.

I saw Kira crying blood.

I looked at the mirror again and saw half of myself and the other half a blood crying Kira.

The reflection turned back to normal and it was just me.

I ran off into a corner and curled up into a ball, rocking back and forth repeating no.

"No no no no no no no. I'm not a monster." I said to myself.

"They're the monsters, I'm perfectly fine." I mumbled to myself.

Raven and the others came up to me.

"S-Sophia?" She asked. "Y-yes." I said still rocking back and forth.

"Calm
Down"

She said and that made me have a flashback.

- 15 years old -
"Calm down." The stranger said as he kept tightening the chains and his friends came up. "NO!!! LET ME GO'!!!!!" I shouted and started crying. "Mamasita it's not gonna hurt." He said as I felt blood come from my eyes. I had an insane and crazed look on my face. "Were just gonna use you as our toy and then you'll be free." One of his friends said. I burned the chains and pulled out my pocket knife. "I'm. Not. A. Toy." I said before killing them.

Thats when I knew I would become a criminal.

- Flashback over -

"No." I said as Raven backed away slightly. "What's wrong?" Slender asked walking up to me. "Everything." I said with a blank expression.

I had no emotions.

I couldn't feel pain, love, anger, sadness, fear, worry, anything.

I was an empty, emotionless and numb human being.

"You can't fix something that doesn't need to be fixed." I said harshly before getting up. "TELL US BITCH!!!!" Pearl shouted.

"Make me." I said keeping a straight face.

She shakily walked up to me and slapped me.

I punched her and she fell back.

"Weak. Try again." I said before kicking her.

"I'm shattered, now it's your turn." I said before pinning her up to a wall with a dagger on her throat. "Let me go." She said as she struggled.

"No." I said as the pulled me off her and surrounded her to help her.

When really, I was the one needing help.

I was At My Worst.