Suicide Attempt • Larry Stylinson

• Chapter 04 (Part 2) •

Louis dunked his head onto the floor, again and again. He hoped that maybe he could bleed to death again and come to that place he talked about earlier, because, well, this probably just was the half way stop after all.

He dunked his head onto the floor one more time until he figured out that that wasn't any help. He breathed out and in heavily to try to relax himself and as expected, it didn't help a bit. He did want this but at the same time he didn't.

Louis suddenly felt a pang in his chest, like someone had dropped a bomb there. The pain then flew all the way around the inside of his body and he couldn't move.The feeling was beyond something he had ever felt and to be honest; it hurt.

Louis then flew right up, eyes wide awake and there now was a different kind of light. Not that vanilla white light that he had seen earlier. No, this was just white white.

He could somewhere in the distant hear small voices but nothing he could catch. He closed his eyes again and his head immediately started to ache.

This was defiantly something else, this was a new feeling again.

''Louis?''

''LOUIS?''

''LOUIS DO YOU HEAR ME?''

''LOUIS PLEASE OPEN YOUR EYES!''

The voices got louder and more and more clearer for every second that passed.

Louis couldn't feel the strength to open his eyes again. He tried, he really did but nothing helped. It felt like a whale was laying on them.

''Clear. 3 2 1.'' Louis felt himself lift from the thing he was laying at and his eyes opened for the second time. The same pain in his chest could be felt again and he shut his eyes.

''Louis if you hear me, react," a female voice said and he obeyed.

He slowly, slowly, carefully opened up one of his eyes and tried to get used to the lights. When that was done he opened the other eye and did the same.

Around him stood four people looking at him like he was something to eat.

''Welcome back Louis!'' One of them announced and Louis blinked.

''What?'' He said slowly and looked around to see where he was.

''You just woke up from a coma,'' a girl with a brown ponytail said, ''you've been passed out for three days and your heart stopped for some some seconds so we had to work fast. It's normal to feel a headache or so.''

Louis couldn't believe this, his suicide attempt hadn't worked and now he had also made a fool out of himself in front of Harry. Oh shit, Harry. What had he thought of it? Oh no, now he must think that Louis is some freak that cut himself and try to commit suicide. Wait, Harry knows that Louis is in love with him now.

For every thought Louis had, the worst everything seemed to be.

What would his family think of him? What if he needed to go to some rehab shit? What if the whole school knew about this already? Oh shit, it's Monday today which means school. Oh gosh.

''Louis, you okay?'' The nurse said and Louis had now noticed that it was only her left.

''Could I get some water and maybe something to eat?'' He cracked out and shut his eyes again.

''Of course, I'll be back in five minutes. If anything happens while I'm gone just press the red button on your left side'' she said and leaved.

Louis looked to his left and saw the red button. He lay down his head on the bed again and sighed. Oh fuck.