Textmate [Kathniel]

Plug ♡ Mixed Signals

Dalawang linggo na akong hindi pumapasok. Pakiramdam ko kasi I was being left behind here in Canada.

Yung feeling na may mga kaibigan naman ako na nandyan para sakin pero deep inside and at the end of the day I was drowning alone.

Everything was crumbling down in front of me and I was blaming myself again.

It was probably that one time na sobrang down na down ako nang mapanuod ko ‘yung interview niya sa TV. Gusto kong ilipat ‘yung channel dahil una sa lahat hindi ako fan ng basketball but when I saw him smile at the flock of reporters lurking around him, nacurious ako.

He was like a breath of fresh air for someone like me who's a pessimist.

How can someone smile despite being pressured by the people around him? I find it really weird. Nagtatapang-tapangan lang ba ito? Nagpapanggap? O talagang optimist lang siya?

He was featured as one of the youngest successful basketball player in the Philippines. Lahat sila ay naka-abang sa mga plano niya in his chosen career as a student-athlete. Pati mga bigating universities sa Pilipinas and even around the world ay hindi nagsasawa sa pagrerecruit sakaniya naghihintay na baka sakaling masungkit nila ito at maisali sa team nila.

But I guess siya 'yung tipo na may prinsipyong iniingatan.

“Mr. Javier, anong masasabi mo sa mga fans na nanunuod ngayon na pangarap din maging successful gaya mo?” tanong ng isang reporter dito.

For a moment ay natigilan ito, he was still smiling.

Tumitig ito sa camera at parang nangungusap ang mga mata niya. Natahimik din 'yung mga reporters sa paligid.

“I don’t have the right to dictate what a person should do with his life to be successful but I just want to share what I always have in mind....” sandali nanaman itong tumigil at tumitig lang sa camera.

“... trust the process”

That hit me.

Big time.