Do you still love me?

lies

I let my body hug him even though he was burning, I kept on caressing his head.
My mind is fucked up, I am doing something wrong, I am not supposed to be here with him, I am supposed to leave him.
Why should I care if he is not well, he didn't care about me then why am I.
I don't deserve to be with him, I deserve peace in my life which he can't give me, he is an abuser.

And who knows what he is going to do with me once I agreed to be with him.

My hands trembled and I stopped caressing his hairs.

I just can't understand how is this happening?? He was completely fine before our argument, how did he catch fever out of nowhere.
I looked down at his face, his eyes are closed. He is already asleep. I can feel his hot breath.
I flinched when my phone started ringing. Oh god.
I extended my hand to get my phone from the night stand .

I stared at the screen blankly.
The fuck!!
I  don't know why he keeps calling me even after knowing I won't answer. I decline it without second thought.

A notification popped up on my screen.
" If you keep on rejecting my calls like that, you will have to face trouble!! ”

A text from Aryan isn't enough to make me scared. I ignored it.
To be more specific I kept it on seen. Hope now he understand how he made me feel ignored and unwanted for years.

I honestly don't give a single shit about him. It's my time to think about myself.

It's time to be selfish for me.

I turned the silent mode on and keep it back on the night stand before looking at Om.
Why I am so worried about him. I would have considered it's because we were good friends but I can't consider it now, as he had hurted me so much. Still I am concerned about him.
Am I pathetic??
Yes I am!!
I am pathetic from the start.
First I let Aryan use me.
Now I am giving same opportunity to Om totally aware about the amount of toxicity this man holds.

How innocent does he looks, this guy got God gifted charm on his face. His facial features are too good to be real.
To be honest he is more good looking than Aryan. I am not saying this because I hate Aryan, I am saying because it's a truth.

I was so busy looking at him that I didn't notice how long it's been.
Suddenly I heard a door bell.
Who is it??
I am literally too lazy to check on the door. But after couple of seconds, I heard door bell ringing again and again.
Additionally I heard banging on door. What the fuck!!
That's so loud, it's audible here in bedroom damn it.
I carefully removed Om's arms from my waist, giving my hundred percent to not wake him up.
I tucked him carefully and walked out of the room, fixing my clothes.
The sound kept on being impatient. What the hell. It's too irritating.
I furiously walked to the door but as soon as I opened it, I lost my shit.
Oh no.
I gasped looking at red faced Aryan in front of me.
I stepped back as he stepped towards me without asking me.
" Why aren't you answering my calls?? "
Oh god!!
He must be kidding.
He showed up at my house because I didn't pick up his calls. What the hell!!
My heart raced. My stomach twisted.
He is literally here.
It's scary as hell.

I gulped .
" I am asking you something!! ” he said in that husky voice.
He shouldn't be here at least right now.
If by any chance Om got to know about this I don't know how should I explain.
" Aryan please.... ”
" I warned you!! "
I exhaled.
" I know your nerves Shalin, don't play hard to get in front of me, I am aware about how badly you wants me!! ”

" You don't know me Aryan, I don't give a single shit about your existence.!!! ” I said firmly.
" Really!! ”
I rolled my eyes.
I have heard give a chance to loser and he thinks he won the world.
He is example for this case.
I should have let him know from the start that I am off limits for him.
I always loved him more than he deserved.
" Get your shitty attitude and leave!! ” I stated firmly.
He stated at me and it would be lie if I say this didn't scare me. He is really creepy.

" Leave him!! ”
I thinned my eyes.
" Excuse me?? ”
" Leave this Kapoor, Shalin!! ”
I mentally laughed. The audacity dude.
Like are you serious??
Who the hell is he to tell me this?
" And why would I? He is my husband!! ”

" He doesn't deserve to be the one, trust me! He isn't a good man!! ”
" Are you?? ” I spat.
" Huh? ”
" He isn't a good man ” I mocked " Are you good enough to have right to say that!! Like are you eligible!! Are you yourself a good human. And what the hell is that he doesn't deserve me, then tell me who deserves, you?? ”

" You don't know him, Shalin, he is a.... ”
" Watch your words when you talk about my husband Mr. Malik!! ” I warned.
" Are you insane?? I don't think you would have married him if you know the truth about him, he is fucking drug addict, he attempted to kill someone, his own family don't want him. And you.... ”

"Just shut up” I don't believe any of his shit.
If it's about Om, I would only believe what come out of his own mouth.
Aryan is freaking jealous.

" Don't interfere in my life!! ” I grabbed his hand to push him out of my house but I gulped when he gripped my arm and twisted it on my back.
" Ahh!!! ”
" Can't you understand once, if there is a man in your life then it will be one and only Aryan Malik!! ”
His voice is intimidating.
He is really scary.
" Are you serious?? Aryan leave me it's hurting!! ’ he twisted it more " Not until you get that in your head, who you belong to. ”

" You are mine!! Only mine!! ”
" Aryan please!! Let me leave in peace!! ”
" For sure!! With me!! ” he said leaning in my face.
" Shalin!!! ” the hair on my neck froze at Om's voice.