The Epitome of Algedonic Love

35: L'APPEL DU VIDE

l'appel du vide — "the call of the void." It's a term that describes the sudden thought or urge to jump from a high place. Like many others, I've encountered the call of the void atop certain tall buildings, quickly suppressing an unwanted urge to vault myself over the edge.

AUTHOR: Due to health issue, my medication is giving me hard time to give time for my writing hobby, as much as I want to finish this before December unfortunately I can't. I was advised by my doctor to take a rest and free myself from stress because stress makes my condition worsen. I hope you understand.

PS. Sorry hindi ko na-iupload ito kahapon, I decided to make it longer para pambawi sa matagal kong pamamahinga.

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❆ CLÍODHNA EISDRACHEN POINT OF VIEW ❆

Weeks have passed by and everything has been quite hectic.

Midterm exams are almost over. Most of my time is spent on paperwork at the office. I'm exhausted, not from the paperwork, It's the things that I can't control. It's been a struggle to manage everything.

After the happenings near the old faculty room, parang walang nangyari between the three of us. I said sorry to Hera pero wala naman raw dapat ipag-sorry, mas lalo tuloy akong na-guilty. The thought of being caught na nasa awkward situation drives me to nuts. Alam kong wala akong ginagawang masama but still, alam kong may epekto iyon kay Hera.

"Autumn. Are you listening?"

I was looking at Mom pero sa ibang bagay napunta ang utak ko. Nasa sala kaming lahat, nasa gitna si Mom at si Dad ay nasa kabilang sofa habang tinitignan ang likod ni Mommy na kanina pa nakapamaywang.

"Sorry Mom. What was that again?" I looked around and saw Frigg kneeling beside me.

Huminga ako ng malalim. May kasalanan na naman ang kambal.

Nakaluhod kaming lahat sa harap ni Mommy. Frigg was at my right ant Tyr is at my left, nasa dulo naman si Frey na katabi ni Frigg.

Bakit ba ako nadamay dito?

"You tolerate your sisters too much. Did you buy Frigg's Lambo?" My mom asked, her tone was calmer when she was talking to me.

I looked at Frigg, then to her knees na namumula na dahil sa floor tiles sila nakaluhod na tatlo at ako lang ang may fluffly soft rug sa tuhod.

Huminga ako ng malalim nang makitang hirap na hirap na si Frigg na lumuhod ng maayos.

"Yes Mom"  I lied. She's already been grounded, hindi ko alam kung ano pang punishment ang gagawin ni mommy kay Frigg kung malaman niyang hindi nagpaalam si Frigg sa akin nang binili niya ang kanyang bagong sasakyan gamit ang business card ko.

"And what was your reason?" She asked. Hindi na siya nagduda kung nagsisinungaling ba ako or hindi. Ganyan si Mom, kung gugustuhin ko ay madali ko lang siyang mauuto.

"Frigg was able to bring profit to S&W because of her advertising plan" I simply answered. Well, it's true. She really did.

Tumingin si Mommy kay Frigg na nakataas ang isang kilay habang nakacrossed ang kanyang mga kamay sa kanyang dibdib.

"Okay. But her attitude and what she did was beyond reasoning" Giit parin ni Mommy, ang lalim ng titig niya kina Frigg at Frey.

"Love. Hayaan mo na sila, malapit na sila maging young adult. Kung ano man ang ginagawa nila sa buhay ay napag-isipan naman nila iyon bago gawin. We just need to guide them. Punishments will only add fuel to their desire to break your rules" SIngit ni dad.