You're My Always//Logan Reese

Girls Will Be Boys

Bella's POV

It's been a week. A week since Logan and I got in that fight. A week since I broke up with him. A week since I've felt normal, safe. A week since I've talked to my best friend. This is the longest we have gone without talking since we were 10 years old and I got grounded and wasn't allowed to leave the house. I didn't have my phone either so Logan and I couldn't talk, but after two days of that torture he would throw rocks at my window and we would talk that way. We made it work no matter what, we weren't ever apart. Until now.

I see him around campus and I avoid eye contact. I see his texts and I leave them on read. I see the knowing looks everywhere I go, so I walk with my head down now. I hear the advice my parents are trying to give me "give him another chance. You're young, he's your best friend" but my pride gets in the way. The worst part of it all is that I didn't just lose my boyfriend, I lost my other half. The person I could rely and depend on for anything. I feel like half of a whole now

The girls finally convinced me to go out and do something with them, they know I'm hurting but they can't bare to see me like this anymore. When I agreed to doing something with them, I didn't think that would mean tanning on the roof of the boys dorm. My anxiety was causing me to stay on constant guard, I couldn't see Logan. As much as I wanted to, I don't know if my heart could handle it

"Hey, what are you guys doing on our roof" my eyes shot open at the familiar voice, the one I know better than my own. And there he stood Logan Reese, looking at me like he'd seen a ghost

"Bella" he whispered out, not expecting to see me here. I immediately started grabbing my stuff so that I could get out of here. I didn't care to hear them fight about us not being wanted on the boys roof

"Bella please talk to me" Logan grabbed my arm as I tried to walk away, forcing me to turn and look in his eyes. His eyes are my favorite shade of brown, not too dark, not too light. They're perfect

"Logan, I can't" I whispered my voice cracking as I did. Everyone's face dropping in shock at the fact that I actually talked to him

"Please let me fix what I did. I miss you" he tried to keep the conversation going, but I meant what I said. I cant. I shook my head and began my walk back to my dorm, tears silently falling out of my eyes. I missed him so much. But I don't know if I could handle the heartbreak again

"Bells I am so sorry, we shouldn't have made you go" I lifted my head from the pillow it was currently buried in to see my roommates staring at me, sad smiles on their face and ice cream in their hands. Their smiles dropping when they saw the tears falling down my cheeks

"I miss him so much" I choked out, as Zoey brought me into a hug. I thought the breakdowns were over, I made it through all of yesterday without one. I thought I was good

"I know you don't want to, but maybe talk to him" Nicole offered, rubbing my leg in comfort

"I can't" I muttered, avoiding all eye contact

"Why, honey" Lola asked softly, making me look up at the three in front of me. I took a deep breath before explaining the never ending string of thoughts that had been circling in my mind for the past week

"Because I'm scared. I trusted that boy with every fiber of my being, and when I had one simple request he couldn't do it. What if I let him in and he breaks my heart again? What if he's only trying to get me back, just to say we're dating again and nothing actually changed? What if he doesn't love me the way I love him?" I rambled on and on voicing every thought that had been haunting me

"Bells, listen to me when I tell you this" Zoey started talking, making me nod my head and give her my full attention. "Logan is head over heels in love with you, he has been a wreck this past week. I have never seen him so sad and vulnerable, but even in the midst of his heartbreak the first thing he asks us every morning is how you are doing. He doesn't let himself get any of the attention, it's all about you. He loves you so much okay Bells? So talking to him, no matter how hard, would be super beneficial. Just think about it, please?" Zoey finished, I didn't know what to say. I didn't know any of that