Lost, Found, And Chosen.

Abandonment Issues

I never knew I had abandonment issues until you left.

You say you were forced to hug me,

Forced to love me, I never gave you the time to.

I create issues in my path, burning down the homes you built.

Im embarrassing.

I'm sitting here still apologizing while you sit behind that screen.

You're asking for my help, then tell me you don't care about me.

Where's the logic, the love?

I can only do the best I can.

Your expectations and cowardliness caused this,

Caused the greatest thing in your life to walk away.

And i'm still begging for your love.

Yes, that is the man I am.

"I've already lost so much I can't lose you too."

But I simply need to recognize my loss, from someone else's.

And I will then truly see.

My eyes still water when I think about it.

But this will be one of those times where,

I will allow my pride to get the best of me.

This is me taking accountability.

Your words can't pierce the image and home I've made for you.

But your abandonment did.